# taz.de -- Covid Crisis in India: The Death of Pradeep Bhattacharya | |
> ‘Why shouldn’t there be a rebellion against the government?’ my uncle | |
> asked in a Facebook post. A few days later he died of Covid in New Delhi. | |
Bild: In his last photograph he is seen sitting on a kerbstone at a Delhi hospi… | |
We seemed to have been trapped in a blizzard of numbers. In addition to | |
[1][following the upsurge of COVID cases in India] and the steady increment | |
in daily mortality figures, we were trying to keep an eye on the West | |
Bengal assembly election results, which were being announced on that day. | |
The number of seats, the number of votes, the number needed for full | |
majority… Then there were the dozens of phone numbers, of oxygen suppliers | |
and hospitals, that we had been receiving every few minutes and trying to | |
call. ‚The number you are calling is currently busy…‘ | |
Later that night, the only numbers that preoccupied us were the blood | |
oxygen saturation levels of my uncle, who was struggling with COVID-induced | |
pneumonia at Delhi’s LNJP Hospital. The sequence went something like this: | |
85, 60, 50, 45, 70… That final blip, from 45 to 70, raised our hopes. But I | |
think my uncle, a rationalist by temperament, would have known, even in his | |
diminished state, that 45 to 70 was no improvement at all. The next health | |
bulletin said 40. | |
There was the usual information blackout at night. We had to wait until the | |
morning for an update on my uncle’s health. His daughter reached the | |
hospital’s help desk early the next day. She was told that the scheduled | |
video call with her father would soon be arranged. A couple of hours later, | |
I received the news that my uncle had passed away. He had died the previous | |
night, at 11.30 p.m. Before I could understand what was happening, the body | |
was on its way to the crematorium. No one could attend the funeral. | |
It’s impossible to mourn such a death—because mourning has to end some day, | |
and because this kind of sudden erasure somehow feels different from death. | |
The grief that ensues after such a pointless cutting-short of life—not just | |
the fact that it happened, but the manner in which it happened—is infinite. | |
It never attains closure, not least because the dead can’t even be properly | |
memorialized. | |
## Infinities of grief | |
The COVID deaths of the past few weeks have plunged our society, and | |
particularly my city, Delhi, into such depthless infinities of grief that I | |
don’t think we can ever emerge from this crisis. Even if the political | |
leaders directly responsible for it—including Prime Minister Narendra | |
Modi—are brought to book. Even if the large-scale fraud and mismanagement | |
besetting our health-care and bureaucratic institutions are set right. Even | |
if no one else dies gasping for air inside a hospital ward. Nothing can | |
reverse the damage that has already been done. | |
I don’t know if my uncle could have been saved. But I know it for a fact | |
that not enough was done to save him. When his SpO2 levels first dropped, | |
he was hooked to an oxygen cylinder and rushed to Guru Teg Bahadur Hospital | |
in east Delhi, only to find the hospital gates barricaded. He waited out on | |
the streets for four to five hours—with the ambulance meter running and the | |
oxygen supply rapidly dwindling—and was then taken to LNJP. | |
By sheer luck, an oxygen-supported bed was arranged for him at LNJP. But, | |
as he soon pointed out over the phone to his daughter, there was a | |
conspicuous shortage of medical staff in the ward (a much-ignored aspect of | |
the current crisis). The supply of medical oxygen, too, seemed to be | |
dangerously fluctuating. One morning, we found that he had been kept off | |
oxygen for three to four hours. This was when his condition took a turn for | |
the worse. | |
Not enough was done by the hospital administration to establish a clear | |
line of communication with the patient’s family. On one day, my uncle’s | |
daughter got a call from his phone, but what she heard on the other end was | |
a stranger’s voice. The man said that he was a doctor at LNJP and asked her | |
to urgently arrange an ICU bed with ventilator for her father at some other | |
hospital. At LNJP, he informed, all the ventilators were taken. This doctor | |
could never be traced and was never heard from again. A thousand phone | |
calls later, we got to know that my uncle’s name was on the waiting list | |
for ventilator beds. | |
On the night of his death, owing to whatever cruel logic of medical triage, | |
he was still on the waiting list. Most likely, at that stage even a | |
ventilator would not have saved his life. Still, all this could have been | |
clearly conveyed to the family. At the very least, the report of his death | |
could have been sent to his daughter at night, rather than revealed in an | |
offhand manner at the help desk the following morning. | |
## Overburdened and helpless | |
I am certain that there’s nothing unusual about this particular case. I | |
have spent the past few weeks reading and hearing reports of similar | |
insensitivity and neglect. And I am privy to the point of view of the | |
front-line staff as well (my mother is a nurse in a COVID hospital), seeing | |
how overburdened and helpless and vulnerable each one of them is feeling. | |
In any case, my intention is not to find someone to blame. At this stage, I | |
am doing the only thing that’s left for me to do: learning to mourn the | |
old-fashioned way, through remembrance. | |
Memory has a role to play here. Pradeep Bhattacharya, my uncle—Fufa, as I | |
called him—was central to some of my earliest memories. These memories go | |
so far back in time that I don’ t have any real recollections associated | |
with them. What I have instead is something more substantial: a visual | |
record in the form of the many photographs Fufa took of me as a toddler. He | |
himself developed these photos in a darkroom. | |
I am told that when I was born—at the same hospital Fufa breathed his last | |
in—he greeted my arrival in this world by presenting to my parents a cake | |
that had 'Welcome Tintin’ written on it. Tintin was the provisional name he | |
had come up with—possibly because I resembled the comic-book character in | |
what I imagine to be my expression of wide-eyed wonderment. If I remember | |
correctly, we still have the photograph of that cake. | |
Fufa was my only bond with that long-forgotten part of my childhood. Every | |
time I met him over the past decade or so, he would invariably take me to | |
those innocent years, and tease me with anecdotes that portrayed | |
me—deservedly, I am sure—as a foolish little bungler. 'Kyun, bahut phudak | |
rahe ho miyan? (You have put on such airs!) I have known you since you were | |
this small,’ he would say and perform his mimicry routine of me as an | |
eight-year-old, crying and demanding, with a puerile sense of entitlement, | |
to be carried home. Nobody else in my immediate circle remembers me as that | |
kid, or at least nobody has instant access to those memories. Fufa, the | |
chronicler of my childhood, was the only bridge to that phase of my life | |
which is now forever lost to me. | |
He was also the first person in my social circle I wanted to write about. | |
During our conversations—and it was mostly just him talking throughout as I | |
listened, attempting to get a word in edgeways—I would take mental notes, | |
saying to myself, 'I must remember this, I must write it down.’ And I did | |
write it down. Many years ago, he offered an unforgettable metaphor to | |
explain how Marx’s ideas were different from Hegel’s. He said, 'Hegel was | |
standing upside down; Marx turned him the right way up.’ | |
## He was his own master | |
Fufa was a teacher of Marxism. Yet he never regarded Marxist theory with | |
any degree of academic detachment. Indeed, enacting those ideas in his own | |
life, as best he could, was among his many projects. For him, the personal | |
was the political, and one manifestation of that Marxist 'self-realization’ | |
was his fierce, uncompromising individualism. | |
As Marx wrote, 'A being does not regard himself as independent unless he is | |
his own master, and he is only his own master when he owes his existence to | |
himself.’ Throughout his life, Fufa owed his existence to no man but | |
himself. Perhaps for this reason, he abided by a kind of renunciatory | |
ethos, rejecting most of the comforts of life, refusing to participate in | |
any form of self-advancement. | |
Perhaps for this reason, he never got around to putting together a 'body of | |
work’. His decades-long collection of photographs remains largely unseen. | |
He never bothered to share his lectures or published articles with anyone. | |
The work he did in creating a syndicated science page for Indian | |
newspapers, possibly the first and only such endeavour in India, is now | |
forgotten. The radio play he made on one of Premchand’s stories has | |
vanished from the airwaves. | |
Until around a generation ago, it was possible in this country to choose to | |
live on one’s own terms. To choose a life of respectable, austere poverty | |
over vulgar consumerism; eccentricity over the norm; individual expression | |
over herd sentiment. Fufa was an embodiment of that alternative style of | |
living. But he and his ilk were increasingly marginalized in the 'New | |
India’, to the extent that they woke up one day and realized that they had | |
lost all social and political relevance. They realized that they were | |
utterly helpless against the forces of the market. | |
Over the last few years, I saw very little of him. We had grown apart, | |
partly because I was myself busy surrendering to some of those forces, | |
giving in to middle-class comforts and careerist ways, effectively | |
suppressing my urge to drift and dream, taking the path opposite to the one | |
he had taken. I sometimes wonder if this was because I didn’t want to end | |
up like him. Or maybe because I understood that I didn’t have his moral | |
courage, something that kept him going. | |
The other thing that kept him going was talking. More than anything else, | |
he liked to talk and, as was often the case, argue—always loudly, with | |
conviction and animation. When I remember him, I first hear his voice, with | |
its booming clarity, resonating across a distance. He almost always spoke | |
at the top of his voice. And his appearance—particularly that heavy beard, | |
more Tolstoy than Tagore—added more weight to the voice. | |
## Victims of the government | |
The last I heard from him was a few months ago. He spoke about the pandemic | |
and said that it was important that we not let it dominate our intellectual | |
life: 'We have to think about other things too. The minds of a lot of | |
people have just shrunk, you see. They have become too introverted. What we | |
need in these times is for people to reach out and talk to others.’ | |
Social media was one of the tools he used to reach out, to keep himself | |
sane, to vent his anger. His last Facebook post, from 22 April, reads, | |
'When a good-for-nothing, remorseless and evil government crosses all | |
limits of indecency, why shouldn’t there be a rebellion?’ He would have | |
enjoyed the Bengal election results, I remember thinking on the day of his | |
death. He would have relished the humiliating loss suffered by the BJP in | |
the state he had his roots in. But he had already joined the ranks of the | |
thousands of victims of the BJP government, helpless and speechless in | |
their suffocation. | |
In his last photograph, taken by his son, he is seen sitting on a kerbstone | |
at a Delhi hospital, breathing through a mask. An oxygen cylinder is on his | |
left, and on his right is an old shopping bag that says 'Reliance Trends’. | |
(That symbolism of the shopping bag is what I find particularly | |
disturbing—how it militated against everything he stood for.) The bag is | |
filled with the things he carried, the things he thought he would need for | |
his hospital stay. He has a disoriented, weary look on his face—the look of | |
someone who is trying to make sense of the world and has nothing left to | |
say. | |
19 May 2021 | |
## LINKS | |
[1] /Pandemie-in-Indien/!5767585 | |
## AUTOREN | |
Vineet Gill | |
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