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2019-05-27 / \/ \/ / \
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Ok, ok. I know I'm starting to get a bit / _/ / /
one-note but this'll be another pharma file \_______/_\___/____/\___/____/_
for y'all and then I'll try to get back on / \/ \/ / \
to writing about other stuff. / _/ /_ _/
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The drought, at least for me, has \________/\________/\___/____/
thankfully broken. Firstly I was lucky
enough to get given a box of acetaminophen/codeine by my family, let's call it
a bachelor's party gift, and secondly I was able to secure some pregabalin
(aka Lyrica). I feel like "cat" is back and firing on all cylinders again and
everything is super good.
Did I write about the pregabalin thing? I forget. I remember I did a file
when I first took it but that was a much higher dose than what I'm really
using so let me recap anyway.
For a while my local pharmacy couldn't get codeine, I mentioned that in the
last file, so instead I was taking 150mg pregabalin and it is very cool. The
lower dose is a very different experience to what I had when I took 300mg. I
like it a lot and, though it feels like I'm betraying a childhood friend to
say it, I maybe like it more than codeine.
Unlike codeine, it goes beyond just comfy cloudiness, the pregabalin also
punches right through my anxiety, it's amazing. I'm more engaged in everything
I do, at work and in my personal life, I'm chatty and creative and agreeable
and comfortable with people. The social anxiety is still there but it makes it
vastly easier to push past it.
There are negatives though, even at 150mg I sometimes get really scattered.
If you read my write up on the 300mg dose[1] you'll remember I wasn't able to
hold a thought for more than a nanosecond and at 150mg it's nowhere near that
bad but i still find myself easily distracted so, while I am solving problems
and getting shit done it's not always problems I need to be solving or shit I
need to be doing. This is especially problematic at work when I should be
grinding on Salesforce but instead I'm doing stuff like writing FAX SEX files
about taking drugs. There's also periods where I just click off and space out
for a minute or two which, again, nice but kinda a pain at work.
There's also some unpleasant physical action, I find I'm clenching my jaw
every now and then and chewing on my cheeks. It's not bad, just sometimes I
catch myself doing it and get annoyed.
One last negative, a silly one, is the 150mg pills aren't cute cartoon red
and white like the 300mg ones, they're just plain white and look like lizard
eggs. Aesthetics are important! Interestingly the 75mg are red and white but
are small, like miniatures. They made me smile without even taking them!
To conclude, if codeine was a comfy, warm beanbag, pregabalin would be a
hoodie. It's still comfy, warm and safe but I can still get out and about,
metaphorically.
Does that even make sense?
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