Too much Minecraft (circumlunar.space), 12/04/2019
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So, user xiled over at sdf mentioned "playing way too much
Minecraft on the SDF server."[1] Also, a possible link
between wasting time and depression, and a few other things.
For some reason, I think I've already confessed my MC
problem here on gopher. To be honest, I feel like I've said
a whole lot of things too many times here in gopher space,
but that's a topic for another post (or did I already post
that?). Ah well, xiled's post is too close to home, I have
to talk it out, even if I already have.
Xiled mentioned low-grade depression. This year has been
tough, for a variety of reasons. I definitely have it too.
I'm stressed. And I definitely am an escapist. I'm human, I
suppose, and not very good at being human sometimes. My
go-to in recent months has been the SDF minecraft server.
It's perfect for an introvert, with hardly any users.
There's enough going on to make exploring fun. There's
enough interaction to make building fun. But, it makes me
sick to think about the waste of real time, real life.
Couple all that with the reality of working for myself, at
home, and you get serious problems. I can play for 8hrs
straight, and no one will stop me. It's not good, at all. I
wish I could say that I would always stop myself, but I
*have* played that way before. It's just not good.
But, with depression, the problem is cyclical. I'm
depressed, so I play, and then I'm more depressed. I play
again.
I wish I had solutions, but all I really have are wishes. I
have made some progress with a few important projects, so my
life hasn't been a total waste. I need to *do* more; not
because more needs to be done, but for my own sanity. That's
my wish. I'll keep at it. Maybe it's time to cut myself off
of MC for a while though...
[1]
gopher://sdf.org:70/1/users/xiled/phlog/2019/20191203_xiledos
