so confused, i'm not in control, everything seems so fake, just an illusion.


I feel like i'm falling again, i'm spiraling in something there's no escape from

i did so well, but it was just running on a hill, and the hill doesn't end

and i cant keep running, i'll trip and fall one day

and when i fall i roll back.

So why struggling, why can't i just let it be.


Recently i read this sentence:
" by the time this feeling is gone I will cringe at it and move on "

it's true. next monday this feeling is gonna be gone and i'll forget it.

What am i doing god damn