I even had an abundant luch: tomato soup with beans and bellpepper and a lot of bread
i feel so guilty now. One part off me wants to binge eat because i already ate a lot
and the "damage is done", the other part wants to throw up everything now.
I know that it's all wrong, i know that i didnt even eat that much, it was all "healthy"
stuff and i even had the strength to stop myself from over-eating when i felt
full and that i wasn't enjoying food anymore.
this is an accomplishment but instead i keep having all of this bad thoughts !!!!!!
but i'll not fall for it this time i dont care
i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.
i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.
i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.
i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.
wish me luck again!
p.s. i did train after eating to try to compesate a bit, i know it's not a good
coping mechanism but at least i didn't harm myself no???
