Sometimes i wonder how many people do actually read my updates and "know" me, cuz i'm
really into the blogposts of some of the users here. When i see a new update by them
i really hope that they are doing great.
anyway today i wanted to write a lil bit about my philosophy of life
and my relationships lately.
during my life i've been through some shit, like everyone, and i've always been
really stoic. i thinks it's a good way to keep going on. probably it's not for
everyone, u gotta be "strong", you gotta accept things for how they are especially
when u cant do anything to change them. it's probably a way of coping with the events
in your life really related to toxic masculinity, because we've all been teached that
a strong man shouldnt cry or act helpless but always fight and strive for what he
wants.
idk, im rambling, but it suits me, i like thinking about myself as a strong man who
can go through shit easily, without being affected by it. (A lot of feminists and
leftist people would kill me for saying this xD)
i don't completely suppress every bad emotion, but i always try to get my shit
together and keep going, and to not mind insignificant events that would ruin my day.
it's hard but it's good to know how to not give a fuck or forget people/things that
happened.
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Life in paris is good, having a lot of fun with my group of friend here. i got really
close with one of them lately, he's been sleepin at my place cause he is changing
house.
We had a lot of fun on new years eve and last saturday. i was drunk, dancing with my
friends and i even met/danced/kissed with some girls that i met there on the
dance-floor. it was really fun.
i swear to god if myself from one year ago would read this he could not believe it.
i also have a friend which names is vinzent, he's german. he's the person with im
the more intimate here, we have talked a lot about our past and current relationships,
we drunk together, we have been in a hangover together, we studyied, we went to the
cinema together, we even went to the gym together. we really shared so many things and
we always could understand eachother even if we are two very different persons with
different backgrounds and cultures. He's going back to Berlin this month, while
im gonna stay another 5 months. it's strange, i hope we will be able to keep our
friendship even if we are distant. We'll see, for the moment i will enjoy our last
days together and then we will see.
as always i've written too much, see u soon guys
P.s. Back to italian Rap, listening to Co'sang and Bassi Maestro.
