i'm joking, i've been working on my self from september and things are going great.
here's my achievements:
Gym & Diet:
Been eating really clean, counting my calories and hitting the gym every single
day from september. i lost a lot of weight and i'm putting on some nice muscles
and strength, i feel healthier and the most handsome than ever.
Porn & Fap:
i stoppend watching porn and consequently fapping, i relapsed some time but the
goal isn't to have a long streak but to be a person that simply doesn't do it.
i'm not gonna explain the pros and why, youtube is full of content about it.
Personally i can say that i feel better, i kind of despise the idea of fapping
now, it feels like something for "degenerate" people now. I remember i had some
inthrusive thoughts about my sexuality before but now i feel like i can control
myself better (probably i didn't express my self really well, i'm not repressing
anything dont worry).
Videogames & Shows/Anime:
I stopped these some years ago, i used to binge watch shows or play addictive
videogames. I dont even feel the attraction to them now.
I still watch a good films when i feel like it, i'm not against any type of
media consumption, but i feel like there's a limit of time and most importantly
the quality/reward of what you are watching matters.
and here are my work in progress:
Good Habits:
i'm trying to start journaling, reading, planning my days and meditating.
Sometimes i do it and it's awesome but i strugle with being constant.
While going to the gym and eating clean feels easy, i tend to procrastinate
on the others, and the major reason is the next point.
Media consuption:
i still spend a lot of time scrolling mindlessly on social media like
instagram/youtube shorts/reddit. i'm probably addicted to it as most people,
that low effort dopamine relased by watching a new video or post it's really
hard to give up to. Without realizing it i pass 1 hour on my bed scrolling.
i think i need to give up to it slowly and find some better alternatives.
short media consumption is really damaging me, it's useless, not really
entertaining/satisfactory/fullfilling and i hate it.
finally:
Focusing more on Studying more and my Projects:
Everyone struggles with this but it will be easier if i can work out the previous
two points.
I've been watching some videos by Hamza on Youtube lately, i like some of the things
he says (self-improving) but other are straight up bullshit(interaction with women).
However he has some interesting points sometimes, he's part of those influencers
that are trying to bring back masculinity (like Jordan Peterson). idk if they are
right or wrong but it's interesting to hear them as a life-long progressist/feminist.
Thats's already too much informations in one blog post, in the next days i'll update
you about my mental health, social and love life!
writing this updates is really therapeutic, i fell better now, thank u so much!
Stay well!
P.s. i'm back to CityPop lately, in love with OMEGA TRIBE and Casiopea
