i've decided on a chosen irl name for the moment (katerina), and ma gave
me a couple of her old skirts.
went to the doctor's to have blood drawn, testing for diabetes and
hypothyroidism --- thyroid test isn't done yet, but the phone calls i've
had thus far knocked me out of commission for like four days, unable to
eat or breathe for the anxiety. only able to get the results back by
having someone else press the call button for me.
some kinda deep trauma shit, terrified to talk to someone without
watching their face to see if they're mad at me.
at the follow-up appointment in february i'm going to finally bring up
starting HRT with my general practitioner. been considering it for
years by now, can't really see myself living a good life without
transitioning.
