today i felt better. i've gone to have lunch with mom at our family house in the countryside.
it was chilling to see her and her husband and chat a little with them. we were having coffee
after lunch and we have seen dirty dancing on public tv. mom told me the entire plot just at
the beginning, but it was fun watching it and commenting how magic, slow and wholesome felt
80s movies.
i ranted about work. she told me last news about her husband, the cats and my brother. they got
a present for me (which now i remember i forgot to bring back to my place -.-'''). it was
a nice day anyways.
i notice i've been too much self centered lately and too much worried about work. i don't like
it, not by the slightest bit even though
-- i'm basically a corporate drone
-- with no actual will to climb up the ladder,
i work hard to get things done well... and people notice and take all the profit they can from
it without signs of good will or caring about other people.
a job shouldn't distract me from the important things in life
like seeing happiness in my mothers eyes
or petting the cats
or being thankful for her husband gift
which he will remember i forgot there... :')
