I had a very busy time writing submits for the University.
I had to move the flat meanwhile, my partner got hand broken, so it all got more complicated than previewed.
Also, I have decided to write all the works in vim, which is quite OK for me, though I am not fully comfortable.
But then, I went for latex, and it was too much for a little time and big workload I had.
Moreover, I had no Internet for almost a month, making it all even more complicated.

Joys of choosing "the hard way".

I am addict (and slow) learner, and I am fine with making errors. Though I am not sure if the Uni can share this attitude, I think they are more into getting "results".


### Money
I am still stressed, but it is going better then in December.
I will go for 2 weeks to Madrid to upgrade Windows computers for an animal pharma company.
When I tell that to my friends they laugh: I am GNU/linux convict and animalist.
But for two weeks it is ok, I will be then able to finish my studies, so it is worth it.


### Flat

We moved to another town, I am happy to be out of Barcelona.
About 2 weeks ago I felt the "click": I was walking on the street and suddenly I got that: it is calm in here, I don't need to be that tense anymore.
It was a very precise moment, where I felt the tension started resolving.

I still have one problem with the flat: the landlord lives just above, so renting out one or two rooms (that was the original plan) gets much more delicate.
In Spain when you rent a flat you are not allowed to share it, if other people are not on the contract.
It is though a common practice. Let's see how it resolves in time.

### Project
As for the University, my proposal of working on tilde.town got warmly accepted by my tutor.
So I developed methodology proposal for that: it is called netnography, which is an ethnography that happens in a virtual realm.
Also, what I proposed is to be transparent to the town, so I need to find a way to "publish" parts of my progresses, findings and so on, so we can discuss it.
I am hesitating between gopher and html.
I feel more comfortable with html, but somehow, making it all visible from outside does not feel well.
My needs of intimacy and privacy are being met.

So maybe gopher is fine.
I feel trust towards gopher users, although I know how precarious it is:
whoever can access gopher, and whenever companies like google want, they can index and mine all of that.

I need to think about that, but visibility is an issue for me.
I feel that tilde.town's community has its intimacy, it is fragile - composed of fragile human beings - and the originality of the relations and its ecosystem is incompatible with exposition and display.
This is how I feel, and I wonder if other neighbours feel this way or others? Drop me a mail if you want to share your perspectives.

I have my standpoints, but I like dialogical way, so I am eager to meet other positions and perspectives.
In non-violent communication this part is very clear: everyone has her/his own feelings, needs and opinions.
We can use communication to let others know what are they. It is a  precept that my knowledge/needs and feelings are not
in opposition neither subordination to those of others.
From this perspective, both being submissive or violent are parts of the same fallacy: failing to acknowledge
that we are ultimately equal (I know this word is a complicated one, I take it genuinely).
And that ultimately, we feel better if others feel well.
It is like we are all independent and autonomous beings but also we are inter-dependent. This inter-dependence is not a pre-condition nor requirement, but rather and intention and direction.
Something that we may opt for, respecting others' autonomy.

But it is so hard to really put that in practice.

I feel I need to explore more the notion of knowledge as something dialogical.
A deer friend of mine pointed to me two scholars: Matusov and Bakhtin.
They seem to express very beautiful ideas that feel compelling to me.
I will let you know more when I read more on them.

Also, I need to create space in the town for updating all the due documentation from this month's work, when I was offline.

I feel excited to share some of the ideas with you, the townies.
And even more excited to get to know from you!