Spent last night figuring out some qmk for a custom keyboard
configuration- it's a 40% keyboard, so kind of important to
have it all the way I wanted it. Took a while because the
file I needed to work with was in C and I don't know any C,
but I worked it out eventually. Most of the effort was setting
up LED color changes with layer changes so I would always know
what layer I'm on, which finally works and helps a lot. I'm
just glad I figured it out because my laptop keyboard is slowly
getting more and more uncooperative. The x key straight-up
refuses to work, the s key is inconsistent now as well, and I'm
just waiting for more to give out at this point. Will probably
look into changing out that part of the hardware if possible.
Fingers crossed I can do that. In the meantime, I can finally
use the x key and reply to emails! Yay!
Not too much to share outside of that. Life is happening and it's
as ok as it'll be for a while. Been having to help my mom with
her job because somehow I, who know almost nothing about accounting,
can figure things out that she's struggling with, like what accounts
the money is supposed to flow through. It's a weird position to be in
and I'd really rather not, but she gets very unpleasant to be around
when she's unhappy and she might lose her job if she can't work this
out. The last time she lost her job was one of the worst periods of
my life and I'd really rather not repeat that. At least she paid me
for it one time. That's more than I was expecting.
Got into a game called Elona. Who likes weird RPGs? Like, "you can
play as a snail and the janitors will try to kill you" weird. Alien
parasite weird. Being haunted by dreams about pumpkins weird. It's
great. And turn-based!
Some identity troubles again last night. I fragment more under stress
and it's frustrating because being pushed over my coping limit is all
it takes for me to lose cohesion. I keep having to remind myself both
that healing is a process with setbacks along the way, and that I
developed differently enough that I'll probably never fit fully into
typical standards of cohesive identity. I think I'll always be at least
a little fragmented. It's more about building cooperation and working
together better, which for me entails a shared self. I just feel a little
brain tangled today I guess.
