let's think about how this started

let's think about how this started 
i remember talking to you late at night 
were we would sometimes complain about random crap 
or get caught up discussing something terribly inconsequential 
and sometimes you'd fall asleep 
and i'd scroll up and re-read some of the texts 
 
back when we used to text, everything stayed on my phone 
and i'd go back a few days at a time 
and try to pick up on any small detail i missed on the original conversation 
juust in case i could show that i remembered, 
to impress you 
 
i remember the night i said 
i'd much rather go on date you 
and you seemed disinterested 
and i thought i'd messed it up 
but it turned out, it was all a misundestanding 
and i laughed at the end because you said you liked me 
after dropping the ball with every new text, you come out and say things are alright 
i wasn't afraid to get closer after that 
 
and then, one night 
you said we should stay friends 
then after shedding a tear or two 
i thought the best to do was not to force 
a relationship that should not happen 
i tried to close my eyes, and not think about you 
and i failed 
you were there in the night, in my dreams, and the following morning 
and that morning, i understood 
all my heart wanted was to 
stay by your side 
a few weeks later, 
after ice skating 
when you said we should remain friends a little longer 
i couldn't handle it 
and made mistakes 
im sorry 
i couldnt bear the thought of losing you 
after that night, i knew all i wanted to do is 
stay by your side 
after i started working 
i realized the biggest sacrifice i've made 
was the time i couldnt dedicate to you 
after long shifts, the reward was always saying goodnight to you 
and maybe talk a bit 
 
i know your parents aren't thrilled about us 
and i understad that, i really do 
if at any time 
you feel like i would leave you 
if at any time 
you think i wont be willing to stay with you 
if at any time 
you think that i'll "jump" 
please remember that 
after every single obstacle we've come across 
i stayed with you