this is being authored at the tail end of monday. it will be amended if i have
any future thoughts.
today was tough. between plurality woes, canada woes, and gender woes, there's
been a lot of pain today, and i had trouble staying on top of all of it.
i've pretty much given up on trying to do anything with bureaucracy in israel.
i can't change my name, because i'm locked out of it for 7 years for stupid
dumbfuck reasons, and hopefully in seven years i won't have an israeli passport.
i can't change my gender marker, because it requires me to go to a gender clinic
and tell both an endocrinologist and a grs surgeon that i don't want their shit
just to change my fucking marker. i've decided this is for the better. a
non-descript, male, unchanged name, to be used whenever necessary. in canada the
first order of business would be to mark my gender as x, and when i get
permanent residence, change my name to the irl name i will go by.
i am plural. singlets don't write long essays to themselves trying to convince
themselves they're plural. i still don't know what that entails, because it
always feels fake, but hopefully i can get used to it, legitimize it in my
brain, and make it feel more real. ashe is going to show up more, probably on
irc as well, though still under the nbsp nick. feel free to ask for it if you
want to talk with it in specific. we're going to try to use "we" more instead of
"i" when it's not specifically aoife (although it is aoife writing right now).
the first part of making our plurality realer is not falling back to one of us
when we're unsure who said something.
i'm worried about canada, for too many reasons to talk about here
