2023-10-15 from the editor of ~insom
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I always look forward to Looptober, and I never participate
as much as I would like.
I know it's unhealthy to beat myself up about it- but it's
also worth examining the friction there is in me just giving
in to doing something that I know that I will like. Brains
are terrible things.
Looptober in 2020 (the first year I did it) was such a great
experience -- in part because I was already in a musical
mood, and I had my gear set up right by my "work" desk --
making it easy to just turn around at the end of the day and
noodle on a synth patch and record something.
But the other part, and something I think about a lot, is
because of lockdowns. I simply didn't have that much to do,
and I wasn't getting as distracted by new things as I
usually would. I have no wish for the world to go back to
that, but I think 2020 has left me with this gap where
stillness should be.
Even without paying work to distract me, my days are full
(often of things that I like!) and the time for hobbies
which have less immediate satisfaction (reading, music,
painting) gets squeezed out for my quick wins (cycling,
electronics, watching video).
