2023-09-27 from the editor of ~insom
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Hello from continued non-work. I am updating my ~ from a
park bench in the city. Trying to figure out what it means
to be a man of leisure.
I accepted a part time job and had to back out of it. I am
substantially more burned out from my years of working in
tech than I first thought. I thought that being excited
about some work again was enough, but it's not. I panicked
at the idea of people relying on me and was instantly
overwhelmed.
Also; since I "journaled" the process of leaving work by
recording it into a dictaphone and later transcribing it and
pasting it in -- I have broken myself of the otherwise good
and consistent habit of journalling the good and bad
feelings I'm having. Which sucks! Because this last month
has had a whole bunch of things to feel and I wish I'd
turned to that tool to help me figure things out and get
them out of my head.
At least there's always tilde.town.
Now that I no longer work at $JOB I can place things into
categories of "within my time at Shopify" and "bracketing my
time at Shopify". For example; colleagues I interviewed,
worked with, and then who left -- that was all within the
time: people coming and going while I stayed still. But
tilde.town is one of those outside things: town helped me
get that job, and now I'm still here even though I am no
longer working there.
I wrote before about how my experience of Canada is entirely
mixed up with my experience of working there, but now I get
to figure out what being in Canada _is_ when it's not for
work.
