Life has been pieceful lately. Every week it's filled with family chores and
kids duty. This is the life that I chose, so when things got overwhelming or
frustrating, there's nothing I can complain about. Did take the family on a
couple of trips lately. As I age, I enjoy more and more watching kids play.
There were moments when I stood outside of time, imagining remembering this
from a long time in the future.
Upgraded from DSLR to a mirrowless camera not long ago (a year ago). Picked up
photography and got better at it. Found myself liking people shots more than
anything else (scenary, animals, ...). I don't have enough energy on street
photography, mostly satisfied with taking good photos of own kids.
Work has been stressful still. There're moments I enjoyed, when writing code,
that's the way I create, I express myself. But I found anything else are
stressful. Dealing with people. I used to be good at it. Since COVID it has
changed, just like everything else in my life around that time. Recently I've
been thinking, I liked to criticize more, and more and more tend to reveal my
unhappiness, tend to be too honest and blunt, less patient with people. That
defaintely casued tension with other. The other thing that has been consistent
in me, when I work I tend to fold in, rather than expand. I like to focus on
the process, the experience of that process, and that inevitably caused
distraction from the outcome.
Lately also found that many good work ideas came from the very limited talks
with people. So, I should do more of that, even if the meeting's agendas aren't
that clear. I should try to be more humble, be more patience.