@vilmibm @joniwoni re: capturing good moods for projects and productivity
I think that's a normal way to feel. I just read *Marbles*, a memoir about
mental illness. Manic Depression, specifically, which is what I have always
called it, but the author never calls it that, always favoring Bipolar.
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https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/13542990-marbles
Anyway, for a long time she refused to medicate herself properly,
fearing the side effects of medication: the dulling of her thoughts and
senses, a loss of identity and personality, etc. (Spoiler alert: she
eventually medicates and gets WAY better and healthier.) One of the
things she tried to do when not taking her medication (and not taking
her conditions seriously) was to schedule activities, jobs, and projects
for times in the future that she predicted and forecasted to coincide
with different swings in her mood. Slow, easy work for depressive
cycles. More high energy, creative work for her manic cycles.
This did not work. Depression was often too depressing for even the
easiest work. And a manic is too wild and grandiose to abide by
anybody else's plans, even those of their own past self!
I don't know what, if anything, I mean imply or suggest by mentioning this.
One way around the issue might be to just not do shit. If you don't do shit,
then you can't feel bad for not doing something. And you won't feel pressured
later to run around and catch up just because you're feeling happy and/or
energetic, because there's not shit for you to catch up on.
I'm not talking about being lazy or literally doing nothing, but instead very
deliberately and with calculation cutting things out of your life which might
*feel* important, but which are ultimately non-essential.
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https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/18077875-essentialism
## random ##
- I feel like in order to live my best life I need 8 hours of sleep a night
and at least 3 naps during the day
- being social on feels/gopher is weird. I never know whether to just mail
people directly, or start a reply in my own feels and just assume/hope that
my target audience sees it.
- changed my name from cpb to dozens. thanks vilmibm!
