Hello hello! It's been a while since I've written anything here. This
semester is still busy, although my schedule is a bit less wild than
last semester. I mostly appreciate having consistent work hours
instead of scattering them throughout the week. Having a few
completely online classes helps, too.
It's spring break for me right now, so I have a bit more time to slow
down and rest, at least in theory. The perfectionist part of me wants
to use all this extra time to get ahead in schoolwork, but I'm slowly
learning to say no to that more often. I have a midterm right after
the break, but that's the only thing that I really need to focus on
right now.
I've been thinking a lot about what I want out of life lately. What
are my values? What do I like? What do I not like? It feels like these
questions keep coming up for me. I'm in no rush to find answers,
because I know the answers will change as I get older. It's good to
think about, though.
I've also been thinking about spirituality stuff lately. I didn't grow
up religious, so it's always felt a bit weird to me to "believe" in
things. I feel like there's something a bit missing, though. I keep
coming back to witchy-adjacent things and that spark hasn't gone away
after years, so it probably means something. For some reason it never
occurred to me to check the university library for witchy books until
a few weeks ago, but they have a whole section surprisingly! I started
reading _Drawing Down the Moon_ by Margot Adler after I heard it
recommended by a few witches. The book is essentially a
history/profile of the pagan movement in America. It was originally
publisehd in the 1970s, but I have the 2006 revised edition. I'm about
halfway through and I'm really enjoying it It's mostly been
about Wicca traditions so far, but I think the next section branches
out a bit further.
I've been poking around on the internet, too (as always). I'm learning
about the different flavors of naturalist spirituality and
Atheopaganism, which seems like it meshes pretty well with my existing
belief system. I like ritual and I like meaning, but I'm not great at
suspending my disbelief in the supernatural and all that. I'm going to
keep reading and exploring.
And I'm rambling! As it seems I always do in these feels entries. Time
to go do something else for a bit :)
