Haven't done a feels in a while. The past few days have been meh. I'm
having a hard time focusing and doing what I want to do. Anxiety has
been getting me, too. Classes start in just over a week and I'm
started to get less excited and more nervous about how busy my
schedule is. I've tried to do school + work before and it completely
overwhelmed me, why did I think it was going to work out this time?
I really need to go to therapy to get my anxiety in check, but the
process of finding someone and dealing with insurance gives me
anxiety. Cool.
Maintenance may or may not be coming this morning. A guy was here
yesterday to fix something else and he noticed some mold in the vents,
so they're supposed to come and clean it out eventually. We did a
bunch of deep cleaning the apartment last night, too. I'm mostly just
upset that my other roommates don't seem to care about cleaning at
all. Like, leaving dishes in the sink for three weeks? Come on,
dude. Take responsiblity for your shit, you know?
Anyway. Maybe I'll just play some breath of the wild or something this
morning to chill out. I need to study security+ but I'm gonna fail my
goal of getting it done before the semester starts, so I may as well
take my time. Agh.
This week wasn't all bad, though. My friends adopted a cat, so I'm
going to visit at some point and pet the cat, woo! I mean, I'm
allergic to cats, but I still wanna pet the cat. He's cute, and I'm
willing to deal with allergies for cute lil animals.
Okay. Hopefully I can shake my bad mood and turn this day around.
