Bereshit ~ Aish Kodesh, October 11, 2012 | |
by Rabbi Henoch Dov Hoffman | |
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Thank G*d for fresh starts. The Torah is round and we go | |
round in circles with the Torah. | |
Student: We go around the bais hamikdash and around the | |
year. | |
Rabbi: We always want to turn circles into spirals. All | |
the circles are working on the sepherot. We re working on | |
a new edition of the Triangles/Paradox book with | |
footnotes. Going around in circles with the lulav and | |
esrog, shaking the six directions. I was once working | |
with a family on rachamim because people were longing for | |
everybody to be nice but there were a lot of hard | |
feelings and nice doesn t work. They were using | |
blackmail, paying people to be nice. It s straight | |
manipulation. Being womblike is a good image. Mom s | |
relationship is so powerful. The womb has to #1 defend | |
the baby from the mother because love without boundaries | |
can be toxic. The baby needs separation. When the timing | |
is correct, the womb kicks the baby out. Going from there | |
to postpartum depression can be threatening. Some mothers | |
hold on to their babies too tightly and others don t hold | |
their babies enough. It s part of mom and separates from | |
mom. We re going to read in Beresheit that Sarah has to | |
die before Yitzchak can be himself. There s an incredible | |
wise Jewish custom. At every wedding the mothers break a | |
plate to sever their ties with their children. | |
I want to tell you how valuable this idea of rachamim is. | |
Nice doesn t work. Its balance of love and boundaries is | |
deep. HaShem made it ambiguous, why? The purpose of | |
creating man was choice. The mother has to make a choice | |
and the kids have to make a choice. Love and _____ v. | |
good boundaries. If you err on one side you end up with | |
Sarah, with your kid in the basement for 37 years. Great | |
people in the Torah don t cover up. The job of the | |
tzaddik is to tell you what they learn from each fall. | |
Student: That s not that the tzaddik keeps getting up | |
until he gets to his goal. | |
Rabbi: We did a hakafot and read a special paragraph. | |
Discipline and love, tenacity and yielding, right and | |
left brain. | |
Student: Devar Torah on the connection between the | |
holidays. | |
We start with Tisha b'Av where HaShem and the Jewish | |
people are lovers standing on opposite ends of a long | |
field. | |
Rabbi: A very, very long field, facing away from each | |
other. Tisha b'Av is hester punim, the hidden face. | |
Student: At Rosh HaShanah we re close to each other. | |
Facing each other? | |
Rabbi: Facing away from each other, like the Cherubs | |
facing opposite directions, like Adam and Chava in the | |
picture on the wall there. When people are facing away | |
from each other there is no intimacy. G*d doesn t change; | |
it s our perception that changes. In intimacy, both | |
parties are responsible for getting close. You can t wait | |
for the other person to do it. In the Warsaw Ghetto the | |
Aish Kodesh felt intimate with HaShem, but most people | |
experienced it as G*d hiding His face. G*d created the | |
world to be a game of hide and seek. Punim a punim or | |
hester punim (face to face or the hidden face). On Rosh | |
Hashanah the stated purpose is crowning HaShem king of | |
the universe. We say If like a king to his servants, that | |
s a relationship, but that s much more distant than a | |
father to his children. Rosh HaShanah is a coronation | |
ceremony. A relationship with the king is mostly fear and | |
with the father is mostly love. We say Avenu Malkenu, Our | |
Father, during the Ten Days. | |
Student: At Yom Kippur we turn and face each other. | |
Rabbi: Yom Kippur is called the day of our wedding. | |
Student: Yom Kippur ends with the N ila service. When the | |
gates close, people think they close in front of them, | |
but you teach that they close behind us. So now we are in | |
the sukkah. In reality, the sukkah has a door, but in the | |
metaphor there is no door because the gates have just | |
closed. We bring the lulav and etrog, the male organ, | |
into the sukkah, which is the yichud room. When we shake | |
it, it makes a wet sound. There are many wet images at | |
this time of year: the water ceremony, prayer for rain, | |
etc., and you teach that this is the sperm. | |
I am surprised at the people who get really uncomfortable | |
with this image. | |
Now the sukkah is the womb and the roof is the way to the | |
birth canal. Someone said the baby enters the world going | |
down and not up. I thought about it for a few days and | |
realized that the baby enters the world head first and we | |
are in the sukkah head first. Upside down doesn t mean | |
much in utero. The baby enters the world head first and | |
if we put who we are under who we were, we have the heads | |
touching with our feet on the ground and the baby s feet | |
pointing upward. This is like the Tree of Life and I | |
thought the menorah on the wall. | |
There are no birth images here. The image is conception, | |
not birth. We go through the dark of winter. The next | |
holiday is Chanukah, which celebrates the point of light | |
in a very dark world. Have you ever seen the first | |
pictures that were taken inside the body? The egg goes | |
shooting out of the fallopian tube looking like a | |
shooting star in the Milky Way. | |
The next holidays are the beginning of labor, the sap | |
running in the trees and the cracking of the seed. Then | |
comes Pesach with the baby in the river, the story of the | |
midwives, the blood on the doorpost, the waters parting, | |
the one nation being taken from the midst of another | |
nation. | |
There are two separate periods of growth. In spring, | |
through birth. Meditation on death is in the fall. Adam | |
and Chava didn t know if winter would ever end. | |
Person: The hava kadisha man said spring and fall are | |
dying season. | |
Rabbi: Let the warmth of the south be part of me. So we | |
re putting our body in rhythm with the world so we can | |
make a change. The focus of Kohelet- We studied this week | |
wisdom is pain. The wiser you get the more painful it is. | |
King Solomon said this from his own experience. There are | |
28 times from the 28 days of a woman s cycle. A time to | |
love and time to hate. Love and hate are married | |
together. The key idea is a time to be born and a time to | |
die. Death at Sukkot is vital. If you don t know the | |
difference, you re missing something so fundamental that | |
you ll be at a loss. Everything in the Torah is built on | |
the awareness of life and death. People who have never | |
been at a birth and death are deprived. | |
Shavuos is called the end of Pesach. Shavuos is the | |
gathering place to integrate. King David died and was | |
born on Shavuos; he is the symbol of integration. When we | |
shake the lulav in, that s King David. | |
In every Torah story there is some sexual aspect and | |
Xtians don t talk about it ever. That attitude has spread | |
to the Jews. | |
At the time of joy we have opposite images. At a wedding | |
we have the breaking of the plate, the breaking of the | |
cup. The Torah says everything requires a balance. The | |
skach has to be dead. We put a lot of death images into | |
Pesach. I love the clash of paradox. | |
The ultimate goal of both is birth of self and teshuva is | |
the goal of both birth curves. We looking to give people | |
an angle through the matzo and an angle through the | |
sukkah. It takes discipline to eat Pesadik food and also | |
to stay in the sukkah. Remember what it was like in the | |
desert because materialism can block your perceptions. | |
Materialism is confusing. People lose their grasp of | |
reality. Wealthy people try to instill in their families | |
the memory of what it was like when they weren t wealthy, | |
and we try to constantly relive through these holidays, | |
Pesach, Shavuos and Sukkas. Regal is the source of the | |
English word regular. It s the attack on food, shelter | |
and sleep. Shavuos is called a sukkah and Yom Kippur is | |
called the day of our wedding. That s when we signed the | |
ketuba. Purim, Chanukah and Tisha b'Av are rabbinic | |
holidays. We have rabbinic holy days. The Torah holidays | |
are more important, but the rabbinic holidays are very | |
important. Kadosh is something you set aside. | |
We re describing the structure of the whole Jewish year. | |
Person: The mixed message in the parent s desire to give | |
the kids the message, there is a certain shame the | |
parents feel at being in the state of poverty. There s a | |
lack of clarity. | |
Rabbi: The first thing is for the person to understand | |
the essence of this process. We re doing it because | |
Xtians go to church and we do this. We re trying to get | |
out of the regalut, the ritualized Judaism. There s | |
authentic teaching where you teach/model children to | |
speak their truth from their heart. If you model that, | |
they are going to get it. The problem is with ritual is | |
that people become shticky: do as I say, not as I do. If | |
you create an authentic home where you speak the truth, | |
the kids are going to get it. The core of the Torah is | |
speaking the truth from the heart. If you don t use good | |
judgment, you can tear the halachah up because you re | |
going to apply it in the wrong way. When we re authentic | |
with each other, things change. | |
The core the human condition is to say no to G*d and | |
rebel; that s man s faith in the Torah. All these stories | |
are about people who rebel. A stone doesn t rebel. Every | |
adolescent is supposed to rebel. G*d built it that way. | |
There s a whole section on the rebellious son. All the | |
Talmudic passages on death penalties, R. Akiva states | |
that it was impossible to make the death penalty stick. | |
The goal of the Talmud is to soften the Torah. It s not | |
an eye for an eye; it s the value of the eye. | |
A big part of parenting is handling adolescent rebelling | |
with good judgment. It s an art form, allowing the kid to | |
go out and rebel when they need to. | |
Person: And reeling them in when they need to be reeled | |
in. | |
Two of the finest people in the community had flooded the | |
school and were up on the roof. | |
The movie Footnote is all about one shoresh, palace and | |
trap. They have three generations of a Jewish family. | |
Most of us are very myopic and see one generation. It | |
shows the competition and other dynamics of the Jewish | |
family. | |
You can know a lot of things, but that s not life. If you | |
have your hand on the Tree of Life, things work. But life | |
and knowledge are not the same thing. | |
Student: Could you elaborate? | |
Rabbi: Did you see the movie about the Kinsey Report? The | |
kids were starved to learn about life. His course was | |
flooded with college kids. He was talking about sexuality | |
and his own boundaries got bad and he ended up in a train | |
wreck. There was lots of knowledge but nothing about | |
life. The word DAT, to know, has these two valences: I-It | |
relationship, which is knowing facts. People don t live | |
based on facts. Based on emotions. Then there s the I- | |
Thou knowing, which is humorously called knowing the | |
Biblical sense, hooking up the Tree of Knowledge with the | |
Tree of Life. | |
Student: Trees are competitive with each other. You can | |
see a vibrant forest or a sickly forest. You can see the | |
tree through the forest and the forest through the trees. | |
You can see the forest on the whole and also the | |
individual tree. If you can t recognize the individual | |
tree, you re missing something. | |
Rabbi: In Avitar, people are hooking into the Tree of | |
Life, which is a beautiful depiction, like aspens, which | |
are hooked together underground. The Western mind comes | |
in and says we have to blow that tree up and get to the | |
gold under the tree. To them it s an to be used as a | |
commodity, and we live in a very sharp juxtaposition of I- | |
It as opposed to I-Thou. We don t have the intimate you | |
in English because English is a business language. | |
Life starts in a paradise of total catering. He wants to | |
be fed, held, cleaned and diapered. The Garden of Eden is | |
a symbol of immaturity. They get their hand in the cookie | |
jar and G*d says Where are you? That question rings out | |
and connects to Tisha b'Av because it s the same shoresh | |
aleph yud kuf hey, it s the same word as the Book of | |
Lamentations. | |
Everything grows out of this story. There s an innocence. | |
I once met a nudist, who became an orthodox Jew. It | |
helped me understand Beresheit. Adam and Chava are naked | |
and unashamed and it s an ideal state. Clothing is | |
treachery. Let s look at it. Chapter 3 verse 1. This | |
story is the essence of the Torah. | |
-The two of them were naked, the man and his wife, and | |
they weren t ashamed. | |
The first story starts out with shame. It s an attempt to | |
be more authentic and real with people. The nudist said | |
it actually worked. People think it would be sexual but | |
it was actually a way for people to have less subterfuge. | |
We re all in disguise. | |
Person: There was a man who walked around for years with | |
no clothing. | |
Rabbi: Do people react to you differently now that you | |
wear a black coat? We live in a world of uniforms. Adam | |
and Eve started in a state of childlike purity. The word | |
for naked also means deceptive. If naked is deceptive and | |
clothing is treachery- | |
Student: You can fool someone with your clothes, clothes | |
make the man. It s a disguise. Naked is deceptive because | |
it s too much too fast. When you push the end, there s a | |
deceptive quality. When you go slow and do things in a | |
dance, it s different. | |
Rabbi: A Chinese woman said all it takes is a bare wrist. | |
We promote modesty because people can be desensitized by | |
nakedness and we want to make people more sensitive. The | |
purpose of the Torah and mechitzas is to sensitize | |
people. People can get jaded with nakedness. | |
Student: Everything in the Torah is a poison and cure. | |
Rabbi: How can nakedness be a cure? | |
Person: For shame of being who you are. When you re naked | |
and you re close to someone, you re just a human being. | |
Student: A person can be modest with clothes but can give | |
a false sense of intimacy. | |
Rabbi: It can be a cure because the whole Torah is | |
talking about intimacy. It s not just giving birth, but | |
giving birth between two intimate people to children who | |
can change the world. | |
R. Twerski had a genealogy that goes all the way back to | |
King David. You could tell that he was a descendant of | |
King David. The families in between worked hard on these | |
issues of truth, intimacy, building a vessel for wisdom | |
and love. Multigenerations of a family that work on | |
themselves diligently, you can tell. It pays off. I tried | |
to adopt that mindset, seeing relationships I didn t | |
like. They quit giving birth mentally, spiritually. Adam | |
and Chava are sharing their stories with us honestly | |
because they want us to know what it s like. It s a very, | |
very deep story. | |
Person: There s something deceptive about being naked, | |
saying what you see is what you get, because there s | |
other things that are hidden. It s a focus on | |
superficiality and a denial of what s hidden. | |
Rabbi: That s a delicious paradox. | |
We have people today who dress up for the power lunch and | |
it s all manipulative and nonsense. You can see this in | |
Arbitrage. The whole idea is to leverage the other guy | |
and overwhelm him with your plumage. | |
-The snake is more deceptive than any animal of the | |
field. | |
The Torah begins with aroom: naked and snake. | |
-and he whispered to the woman . | |
Switching to triangle AROOM: the synthesis is naked and | |
ashamed. What does that mean to have clothing of light? | |
They were not real human beings. They were too spiritual | |
to make choices. G*d had to de-spiritualize the universe | |
to make an arena where people could make choices. Where | |
there s too much light, there is no room for choice. It s | |
a play on G*d sewed for them clothing of skin. One with | |
an eyen is skin of hide, and with an aleph skin of light. | |
Why are we opening the roof of the sukkah? To let in the | |
spiritual light. The physical light is only a hint that | |
we re letting light in and the sukkah is letting in the | |
surrounding light. | |
They couldn t receive it. Their roofs were clothes. The | |
predator senses the weakness and jumps on it. The snake | |
is the symbol of that predatory desire we have in each of | |
us. That s the worst ethical fall. | |
The midrash says the snake became her sexual fantasy and | |
the end of the story is the first divorce. | |
Student: Your fantasy should be who you re with, not who | |
you re not with. | |
Rabbi: Everyone is in their fantasy. | |
They made love and there s no birth; it s sterile. The | |
idea of making love to the snake becomes a metaphor of | |
sterilized creativity, creativity run amok. You can make | |
love to the snake with a bottle of whiskey, heroine. | |
Fantasies don t talk back. | |
Person: We have negative fantasies all the time. | |
Rabbi: That s why shame is the key word. Adam says the | |
woman You gave to me. That was not the question. The | |
question was where are you in OUR intimacy? Shame is the | |
process of negative self-talk. Adam goes off with Lilith. | |
G*d is the judge in the divorce court. For 120 years they | |
masturbate with their fantasies and then they get sick of | |
it and they say let s try again. | |
Clothing of leather: migdey ohr there s the play again | |
and yagone, 69, suffering. There s a lot of suffering | |
between the clothing of light and the clothing of skin. | |
Am I going to live my life getting nourished from | |
superficialities? With the women it was the competition | |
between mink stoles and the men would buy a new car every | |
year. That was being nourished from the superficial, the | |
world of shells. Or can you connect to the world of | |
essence? Havdallah is an absolutely essential prayer | |
service, making the difference between the dark and | |
light, the profane and the holy, and we look at the | |
fingernails. Adam and Eve had fingernail material over | |
all of their bodies. The mitzvah of havdallah is seeing | |
the light reflected off your fingernails. They lost the | |
basic connection, got exiled, got divorced. It s a | |
metaphor for loss, separation, lack of intimacy. | |
Student: The baby is fed through the umbilical cord. We | |
re fed by the light of mom. And the moment the baby is | |
born the umbilicus turns into a tendon and can no longer | |
nourish us. | |
Student: There s a glimpse into the reptilian stage. It s | |
the automatic responses to stimuli, flight or fight. | |
Rabbi: Or fear. The way we violate each other. Can you | |
get any closer to the reptile brain than warfare? I had a | |
friend who said every time he pushed the button he had an | |
orgasm. Warfare is not so much fun, but also very | |
stimulating. | |
-The woman said even though HaShem said don t eat from | |
all the trees of the garden, from the fruit of the trees | |
of the garden you can eat, that s what G*d said, but from | |
the fruit of the tree that s inside the garden, G*d said | |
don t eat from it and don t touch it lest you die. | |
Adam lied. When a husband lies to a wife she doesn t | |
trust him any more. He lied because he didn t trust her. | |
The chain of mistrust started the divorce. | |
Person: The only lie was when Adam said don t touch it. | |
Rabbi: Little lies create big gaps in trust. | |
Student: What about the tree in the garden and the tree | |
outside the garden? | |
Rabbi: The word betoch is the key. We re trying to bring | |
out the essence of things. There s a superficial way to | |
know and an intimate way to know. Which world do you want | |
to be in? One tree was betoch. It doesn t come through in | |
English. | |
Person: It s translated in the center. | |
-You will surely not die. | |
He pushed her into the tree and she didn t die. The snake | |
found that one little mistrust in the relationship. That | |
s the predatory skill. | |
Student: You can eat of any tree in the garden except for | |
the one that s the essence of the garden. | |
Rabbi: You will know as much as G*d, your eyes will open | |
and you will be like G*d. | |
The seduction of the snake. | |
-You will know the difference between good and evil. | |
That s what euphemized as the Tree of Good and Evil. G*d | |
created us with egos and as rebels. We re talking about | |
the maturation process of all humanity. They have a | |
natural desire to be senior desires. | |
-It is an appetite to the eyes. | |
The eye sees and the heart desires. The hormones flow for | |
food and sex, and they are both combined in this story | |
for those who know. | |
We re trying to take this predator and turn him into a | |
mentch. We re trying to find an antidote. You have to | |
squirt it in to the part of the story you connect to. | |
-She saw it was good to eat and her appetite took over. | |
Rabbi: The forbidden fruit. That s the main motivation | |
for a lot of things, for eating, for sexuality. Every | |
mitzvah is designed to regress you to this rebellion | |
point. | |
-It looked very beautiful. It tastes good. I m going to | |
have a lot of knowledge by eating this, and she took from | |
the fruit. | |
Rabbi: The snake knew he could get her going if he pushed | |
her against the tree and she saw the threat of death was | |
empty. | |
Adam s eating is an afterthought and run on sentence. | |
-She gave it also to her husband and he ate too. | |
Rabbi: It s an afterthought. Guilty people don t want to | |
be alone. They want to bring someone else into their | |
crime. | |
Student: Except Elisha Ben Abuya. | |
-They were maturing, they knew they were naked. They took | |
the leaves of a fig tree. | |
Rabbi: The fig leaf as a cover up is still in our | |
culture. | |
Student: It s the highest of the fruits, soft and | |
completely eatable. | |
-They made for themselves belts of fig leaves and they | |
heard the voice of HaShem walking in the garden. | |
Rabbi: How do you do that? Here s the real breakdown: | |
-And man hid. | |
Rabbi: Torah s focus is not on crimes, but on the cover | |
up of crimes. It s what happens one minute after the | |
crime. Can I turn to remorse and not into guilt and | |
shame? | |
Person: That should be Parenting 101. | |
Student: Parenting of your kids or your Self? | |
Person: I walk in the door and the challah is gone and | |
the dogs are crouching down. | |
Student: A little boy said She wet my pants. | |
Rabbi: The next scenes lead to the first murder and G*d | |
is telling Cain there is sin that is crouching at the | |
door like a cat and its desire is for you. The sin he | |
learned from his parents are shame and blame. Sins get | |
passed down for ten generations. Until somebody puts a | |
stop to it, it keeps going. | |
Student: I m on the fifth generation. | |
Rabbi: Skip to chapter four: | |
-Now the man had known his wife Eve and she conceived . | |
Rabbi: Her payments were labor pains. She thought she was | |
going to die. There was no one to coach her about labor | |
pains. That s why she said I acquired a man with HaShem. | |
Cain means purchase. I purchased this baby with my pain. | |
Chevel means vanity. It s tied to sukkah. Mr. Purchase | |
and Mr. Vanity are the first two babies born. There s a | |
very important interlude here. They said you created us, | |
you create the children. G*d said I want you to know what | |
it was like to create the world and you. You give birth. | |
It s a deep thing to create something you can t control. | |
The child is wild card. You can t control its health or | |
anything about it. You can guide it. You have to give | |
birth. That s a profound moment. | |
Rabbi: Why did he bring an offering? | |
Person: He wanted to get good grades. | |
Rabbi: Cain brought seconds, Chevel brought the best. | |
They re fighting over G*d s attention. | |
Person: Why would Cain bring second best? | |
Rabbi: Very good question. Why do people feel | |
underappreciated? | |
People who live in losses, it s a whole frame of mind. | |
People lose their spouses and I say replace that loss, | |
use it as an inspiration to go on into the future. I lost | |
two students this year and I try to spin it that way, | |
what they gave me and how to replace it. The feeling of | |
being underappreciated is so common that it deserves a | |
lot of attention. | |
A ten year old girl said this is what happens in school. | |
The kids who want to butter up the teacher to get a good | |
grade or get the attention can t do their best because | |
they re always trying to please somebody else. That was | |
profound. | |
-HaShem turned to Chevel and his offering . | |
Rabbi: The word for turn is key. Lo sh ah, which is also | |
time. G*d is saying I can t spend time with you because | |
you have no time. | |
Most people have a hard time saying to the boss all the | |
Saturdays and these 12 days I m off. This is my | |
integrity. This is who I am. I knew a man who used to get | |
a new job every week until he started his own business. | |
-This annoyed Cain exceedingly and his countenance fell. | |
Rabbi: He s looking at his feet. He takes it totally | |
personally. No responsibility; only shame. The process | |
has now been replicated. Instead of taking | |
responsibility, he feels ashamed. | |
-HaShem said to Cain why are you annoyed? | |
Rabbi: It s not forgiven. You will be lifted up. You will | |
be elevated. You will be able to lift your head. Abraham | |
at the Akeida lifts his eyes up. Only when you lift your | |
eyes up do you see what resources you have. | |
It desires you but you can conquer it. John Steinbeck | |
wrote East of Eden and put these Hebrew words in a wooden | |
box and on the top engraved he put the words you may rule | |
over it with a wood engraver. Blame and shame is the | |
scapegoating. Hitler first felt ashamed. It s a process. | |
In this story people are blaming other people and G*d. | |
G*d becomes the big parent in the sky. The parents taught | |
them. This begins a chain of stories and you can t | |
understand one unless you connect them. You re trapped in | |
the mistakes of your parents. | |
Rabbi: If I didn t get attention and I felt hurt and | |
unappreciated, Cain got the message how do get love? His | |
name is purchase. Money can buy you love. People try to | |
buy and sell love all the time. | |
The midrash says that Abel looked at his brother and said | |
he s an idiot, he s reacting like a five year old, the | |
hell with him. That s why his name is vanity. How does a | |
spiritual person look at the schleppers? There s an | |
inherent arrogance in all spirituality. Once I think I m | |
getting closer to G*d. | |
It s about all the places we live when we re honest with | |
ourselves. They were the first tzadikim who fell. | |
-Cain spoke with his brother Chevel . | |
Rabbi: One line for the first murder. The midrash fills | |
in what they were talking about. Cain said this is my | |
field. I own the land. Farming created private property. | |
That s why bread is called war. The torah makes a big | |
deal out of this point. Abraham, the first Jew, muzzles | |
his sheep. Moshe led his sheep all the way to the middle | |
of the Sinai Desert. We don t mix linen and wool because | |
Cain grew the linen and Abel grew the wool. We have to | |
respect differences. The exodus is about being trapped | |
and enslaved by cattle people and reasserting our | |
identity as Jews, we re shepherds. Cattle people don t | |
like sheep people in Colorado or in Egypt. This is a | |
diamond. There are so many facets to this story. | |
Torah stories are not about good guys and bad guys. | |
Chevel had time to speak to HaShem and he brought his | |
first fruit. But there s a pitfall for spiritual people | |
for schleppers. Nobody in the Torah is black and white. | |
Even G*d: He is implicated in every sin that any human | |
does. Islam and Xtianity can t understand how you can | |
worship a G*d who isn t all white. Most Jews don t | |
understand either. | |
-G*d said where is Chevel your brother . | |
Rabbi: We move into the sukkah and become a vagrant and | |
wanderer on the earth. When we throw the dirt on the | |
blood we repay the bird for covering Abel s blood. | |
The human condition is so complicated and so simple. | |
SACRED FIRE PAGE 234 | |
Abraham called G*d My L*rd and Adam called G*d My L*rd. | |
Adam was the first one in the Torah and Abraham only made | |
the midrash. | |
Rabbi: Abraham had a nightmare about the carcasses, the | |
covenant of the halves, smoking furnaces. Do you think | |
that meant something to the Aish Kodesh? Abraham is the | |
Aish Kodesh. Some people call G*d Ad*noi in Paradise. | |
A holy person is somebody who can connect to G*d in hard | |
times. Suffering is to be used as a crucible. | |
Student: Abraham did it out of suffering but Adam did it | |
because he was in Paradise. | |
Rabbi: Arizal says hard things happen to holy people | |
because they can connect the dots, connect to G*d with | |
suffering and with joy. Abraham is modeling for us. He | |
says I m Abraham and I m calling G*d Ad*noi here in the | |
Warsaw Ghetto. | |
Student: The Aish Kodesh says everyone has your own | |
personal niggun and if you sing someone else s niggun it | |
s like swallowing someone else s spit. | |
Rabbi: You have to find your purpose and if you re people | |
pleasing you re not fulfilling your purpose. G*d wants a | |
partner. | |
How can you differentiate and be humble? We call that | |
humble confidence. My teacher taught me how to be | |
original and creative. How to be Henoch Dov Hoffman. | |
Student: There s traps everywhere. | |
Rabbi: Chevel says my brother is an accountant. There are | |
traps all over. Rabbi Twerski gives us a model of humble | |
confidence. He quit a big shul to teach me and another | |
couple of guys an authentic Torah instead of catering to | |
boards and chazerai. That took a lot of courage. | |
I m either a copy cat or I m original and creative. | |
Person: When I build a house, we all have an idea of what | |
a house will be, what doors will be, what windows will | |
be. In the end I built a very standard house because it s | |
cheaper. But there are so many different ways to build a | |
house but the idea is the same: keeping your warm and dry | |
or cool and dry. | |
Rabbi: Did you bring a clean piece of paper tonight? Do | |
you have any surprises for me? It was all given to Moshe | |
and it s all original and creative. | |
-If it had not all been given to Moses the student would | |
not have been able to be creative . | |
Rabbi: I m doing Sukkot every year and it s the major | |
source of my originality and creativity. How can it be? I | |
m doing it every year? Without the structure given to me | |
from my ancestors, it wouldn t be innovative. It s an | |
interesting synthesis of form and substance, innovation | |
and structure. | |
Person: Creativity is a process, an essence. | |
Rabbi: The trick is to be humble and creative at the same | |
time. Chevel couldn t help his brother. He said he s a | |
materialist. He wants all the rest of us to appreciate | |
him. | |
Humble and creative is when I say I m going to do the | |
same Sukkot my great-grandfather did in Europe, all the | |
way back to Mt. Sinai, that s going to be structure of my | |
creativity, I m a traditional revolutionary. | |
Revolutionary through teaching 3,000 year old torahs. It | |
makes no sense to most people. | |
Person: You can be creative in your teshuva. | |
Rabbi: Picasso learned all the traditional techniques, | |
how to paint a simple apple, and this allowed him to be | |
creative. | |
Student: Music is the mix of the higher spheres and math. | |
Rabbi: It s one thing to say Ad*noi in heaven and another | |
in hell. | |
-This may also be the hint in the famous last words of R. | |
Shimon ben Gamliel . | |
Rabbi: Why did he say that? It s more than spiritual | |
arrogance. It s also not being ashamed of spiritual | |
arrogance. You think you re flawless? We are all going to | |
pay with our lives. Everyone dies in their mistakes. Then | |
you can accept your death in a different way. | |
Student: It s not that we get a death sentence for our | |
mistakes. We already have a death sentence and having it | |
attached to our mistakes makes our death meaningful | |
(trf). | |
Rabbi: What a great thing that the Aish Kodesh shared | |
this story with me because I never found this story in | |
the midrash. We read about the ten martyrs but we didn t | |
read about it this way. I never read this story about | |
this conversation before. | |
-They beseeched the Roman Speculator . | |
FINAL REMARKS | |
Student: People think from one place and live from | |
another. I understood what dynamic a person was living so | |
I wrote to her about it and she wrote back she used to do | |
it, other people do it, etc. I do this a lot, too. | |
The meaning of the birth pains: I always took this | |
literally, that now birth would be painful, but what I | |
heard tonight is that all of our creativity has a degree | |
of pain, whether it is the birth of things or the birth | |
of Self. | |
Trapped in the mistakes of the parents: One of my | |
children told me about something going on and I told her | |
that I learned it from my mother and taught it to her. | |
Sometimes I step out of the things that I was taught and | |
it s like stepping into the sunlight after being in a | |
fog, a moment of pleasure and freedom. | |
On Yom Tov I was higher than high. In any way you could | |
receive elevation, I received it. I had asked someone, a | |
rabbi I, frankly, wouldn t mind impressing, if he would | |
daven for my son because I paid for a bracha a year ago | |
that he should get married and he s still single. So I m | |
at a meal with this rabbi and a lot of other people and | |
he calls out to me, How s David? I just look at him. | |
David who? David Larson! And I m thinking the name s | |
familiar, I can t quite place it. Then he says, Where | |
does he live? I m thinking, Live? Somewhere in Denver, I | |
guess. I thought this was not the right moment to tell | |
him he had an elevated soul at his table and reveal the | |
glory that was me. | |
Person: Dan has talked to me over and over about this | |
drizzle down effect. He was talking about all the things | |
that went on with his Dad and Dan still continues with | |
the conversation. My mom is doing all the things that I | |
do and my daughter does and now I m starting to | |
understand her instead of getting mad and frustrated and | |
I m creating humor, and it s transforming my relationship | |
with my daughter, too. You get it when you get it. | |
Student: A moment of true simcha in the pain. | |
Person: The original thinking out of the box. I remember | |
times I would be riding my bicycle and there would be a | |
long hill and then I m day dreaming and find myself at | |
the top and I want to write down the ideas. Now they seem | |
clich but they came as part of my life experience but | |
they were real and fresh to me. | |
Student: It isn t the words, it s how deep the connection | |
is to it. | |
Person: When I connect with my gut other people resonate | |
to it. When we don t care how other people are going to | |
receive it but it s a real thing and we re not afraid of | |
judgment. We all have a niggun and no one else can sing | |
it. It s all of us singing our own songs together- | |
Rabbi: T chila means first. Abel could bring his first; | |
he could be original and creative in his relationship | |
with G*d and Cain didn t know how to do it. Abel brought | |
one scrawny little sheep but it was his best one, and | |
Cain brought a King Sooper truck, but it was all seconds. | |
If a truckload of stuff is based on pleasing somebody, it | |
s not your best. How do we learn to value our best? | |
Beautiful. Thank you. | |
Student: When I started reading the Chumash I couldn t | |
understand any of it. Going over it gives it so much more | |
richness. You said the Chumash was the Cliff Notes | |
version. | |
Rabbi: It s a code. | |
Student: Even in English unless you get the translation | |
from Hebrew and the nuances- My son told me the whole | |
Chumash is filled with jokes and parodies but you wouldn | |
t get it unless you understand the language. I feel | |
frustrated at being locked out of my religion. | |
I was really upset today. My father was driving and | |
thought he saw a dog, he slid into a curve and two of his | |
tires popped off. He was all confused and I think he had | |
one of those little TIAs. He s entitled to reparations | |
and he s entitled to all kinds of services. | |
Rabbi: There s so much shame in persecution. | |
Student: It s only through Rabbi Hoffman that I can | |
understand my father. He was illiterate and so ashamed of | |
it. He was a Jew and not allowed to go to school. I | |
wanted to thank you about that, helping me to understand | |
my father more. | |
Person: Enjoyable class. I enjoy going line by line | |
through the Torah. I appreciate the wealth of your | |
knowledge and the sparkle in your eyes when you see Torah | |
you haven t learned yet. I especially enjoy the class s | |
input today, very enthusiastic, questions. I enjoyed the | |
harmony in that. I heard anew one. It s not In the | |
beginning. It In the big inning. My facet is the flow. It | |
s not a particular sparkle. It s the movement between the | |
stories. It s not having made the mistake; it s being | |
deceptive about the mistake. We can talk about our | |
genuiness and creativeness. T chila first. It s nice to | |
honor the creative positives that we have, but can we | |
hold the creative mistakes and see our individuality born? | |
Rabbi: That s what I liked about R. Shimon. They created | |
a way for him to face his death. | |
The aspect of a Jewish spirituality connect in suffering | |
is a big truth but we can t just obliquely embrace | |
because that s dangerous. | |
Rabbi: It s always the poison and the cure. Life is | |
vulnerable. Only death isn t. | |
Rabbi: I have a book that s extraordinary, all the | |
eulogies for Devorah Miller. I ll end with one little | |
piece. | |
Rabbi Henoch Dov teaches in Denver, Colorado. You can | |
contact him through his web page, www.RabbiHenochDov.com | |
or via [email protected]. | |
References | |
1. https://ia801501.us.archive.org/6/items/Parshas/Parshas.html (link) | |
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