Tazria, Shabbat ha Chodesh ~ Aish Kodesh 03/31/2011 | |
by Rabbi Henoch Dov Hoffman | |
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March 31, 2011, Aish Kodesh Class, Parsha Tazria, Shabbos | |
HaKodesh | |
Let's review a little bit because we have to understand | |
that before we can understand this. I have a beautiful | |
song about Miriam's leprosy. This week we're talking | |
about tumah, leprosy, sexuality and life. One of the | |
things that's so grand about being a Jew is that we talk | |
about things differently than other people do. G*d gave | |
us this physical world where He s invisible and we have | |
to search him out. | |
The middle word of the Torah is DAROSH DAROSH. Chapter | |
10, Verse 16. Moshe inquired insistently. Moshe was | |
searching and searching, which brings us to the chumatz. | |
Chametz means sour. Pickles are chumatzim. Vinegar is the | |
same word. Chumatz is bacteria working on the flour. Each | |
mitzvah is a physical act and also metaphysical with deep | |
meaning. We re not just cleaning, we re doing teshuva. | |
You have to break your heart. | |
On Purim there s two types of simcha. G*d flashes a | |
situation where the Jews are saved from Haman, and that | |
was a great simcha, but there was a greater simcha that | |
after 1,000 years of searching and searching they rose | |
and received the Torah for the first time. G*d gives you | |
flashes of inspiration, which is the first simcha, but | |
there is so much more simcha that comes from a broken | |
heart. This was crucial for the Aish Kodesh to prepare | |
himself for the Warsaw Ghetto. In the darkness there | |
there s a flash that s outside of you and bigger than | |
you, but then you get bigger to receive it. In Jacob s | |
angels on the ladder go up before they go down. Jacob s | |
heart has been broken, he s been in a wealthy home and he | |
s been robbed everything. The angels are leaving, his | |
spirituality is leaving. When you feel that breaking of | |
yourself, you can expand your receiving vessels, kalim. | |
When the angels come back there s more space for them so | |
you integrate them at a higher level. The Lubovicher | |
Rebbe says a rock doesn t need anything. It symbolizes | |
all mute matter in the world. Then HaShem created soil, | |
water and sun, and the plant is free. But animals need a | |
little bit more. Animals need movement. That s the four | |
worlds of consciousness. At some level we re like a rock. | |
The fourth level is human life, which is speaking life, | |
which is purpose, meaning and growth to feel free. | |
Many people exist like rocks, or are like plants or | |
animals. That s why we use the four worlds constantly. | |
The deeper level of Purim was beyond the drinking and the | |
party. We repaired Sinai. There were two levels: the | |
flash revelation. First they said, We will do and we will | |
listen to their doing. This is the correct translation. | |
At every word of the first commandment they died and then | |
they were resuscitated by a dew that fell. It was beyond | |
their ability to conceive of, so they said Moshe, You go | |
up and bring it down. The next scene is very mysterious. | |
HaShem holds the mountain over their heads and says, If | |
you don t receive the Torah, this mountain will be your | |
coffin. That s the breaking part. This is where HaShem | |
becomes the helpmate against you. When you know you have | |
overcome some of your demons, you know that you re free. | |
That s why we do it in a dark room. | |
On Purim they were broken at the meal of Achashveros. | |
Mordechai was the head of the Sanhedrin. The other rabbis | |
said, We have to go to Achashveros s party. So they ate | |
pork chops on the Temple plates and they were all so | |
broken. Then Haman says he won t be happy until Mordechai | |
bows down to him, so the other rabbis kicked Mordechai | |
off the Sanhedrin. Gandhi said that if one Jew would have | |
not bowed down to Hitler- He called it the discipline of | |
non-cooperation. That s what Mordechai was practicing. | |
One man did a parody of the Nazis in their face. The last | |
thing Julius Rosenberg said before he was hanged as a | |
Nazi war criminal was, Today is Purim 1946. | |
You can see Mordechai and Esther both growing and | |
becoming bigger people. Mordechai said to Esther, Only | |
for this moment were you put here. And she figured out | |
how one person could control the situation. | |
When Miriam gets thrown out of the camp, it s the same | |
moment. G*d was not present. There were no fiery letters | |
in the sky. Like Miriam they re doing it outside the | |
camp, in exile. | |
When it becomes a capital crime to be a Jew, suddenly you | |
know that who you are is a capital crime. We learned from | |
Nadab and Abihu that being a Jew is a risky business. My | |
rabbi s uncle, the Bobover Rebbe, had thousands and | |
thousands of followers. He came home to his son in | |
Brachia in Poland near Cracow, the oldest Jewish | |
settlement in Eastern Europe, originally settled at the | |
time of the Romans. The head of the Nazis, Amman Goethe, | |
made a speech in which he said, The Jews have been here | |
2,000 years and their presence here will just be a rumor | |
from now on. The Bobover Rebbe came home to his son and | |
said, s Shabbos, we have to cut our payas and our beards | |
or they will shoot us. This is the halachah that the | |
rabbis evoked to Mordechai: you can t risk people s | |
lives. So all the rabbis went to the meal and ate the | |
pork chops on the Temple plates. And they were so broken. | |
Jeremiah prophesized G*d has not forsaken us and will | |
return us after 70 years. The idea of chumatz is | |
illustrated in this story. Moshe is searching and | |
searching. In line 16 you see Aaron didn t follow his | |
orders. This is the bull s eye of the Torah. In line 15 | |
it says Moshe tells Aaron, You ate two goats and it s G*d | |
s will that you eat the third. But the goat was burned | |
instead of eaten. The word is used to describe Moshe is | |
actually foaming. Moshe was so angry he was foaming. This | |
is rage. So much is happening for Moshe. He lost his | |
nephews. He said to Aaron, I thought either you or I | |
would be the sacrifice, but now I see that your sons were | |
greater than we are. He implies that Judaism requires | |
human sacrifice. This is how we understand the millions | |
of martyrs. I highly recommend Of Gods And Men, a movie | |
about ten monks who decided to martyr themselves in | |
Algeria. All the people who said, m not converting, and | |
they were killed or they had to leave. | |
This is very provocative. Tevya said, Choose someone else | |
for a while. It s our job to teach Muslims and Xtians to | |
stop scapegoating Jews. We have to resist scapegoating. | |
The premise of the Torah is that it s happening all the | |
time. We read about Nadab and Abihu every Yom Kippur. | |
Moshe is enraged and the Midrash fills in the details. | |
The first seven days of the dedication of the mishkan | |
Moshe was the Kohane Godol. When Moshe said at the | |
Burning Bush, Send somebody else, he lost the right to be | |
the high priest. Moshe is talking to Aaron s sons, but he | |
s mad at his brother, and Aaron knows that. Moshe was | |
very conscious that the whole mishkan was an atonement | |
for the Golden Calf. He said, You should have eaten it in | |
the holy place even though you are in mourning. The | |
moment when Aaron responds is the moment when the baton | |
is passed. Aaron is saying, m in charge here. Aaron says, | |
If I had eaten the sin offering today would that have | |
pleased G*d? Moshe was in charge right until that moment. | |
This is hard moment for Moshe. He s a take-charge guy. | |
The brotherly rivalry is the whole theme of the Torah. | |
You have to go to the place of where you relate to your | |
siblings. | |
This is Moshe s dark room. This is how he s teaching us | |
to search for chumatz. The stuff in the cracks starts to | |
sour. The main image, SA-OR, is the gas that s given off | |
in fermentation. This is anger. Moshe is the | |
reincarnation of Abel, so we re going all the way back to | |
the first murder of the first sibling. The Arizah teaches | |
us that it s Abel and Noah. The two souls combine to make | |
Moshe s soul. | |
(Women had a much higher status, but the Xtian | |
environment affected it. The tone of the Talmud is much | |
different about women.) | |
Moshe is baring his dark room. In the end you see what he | |
was searching for: Aaron says, You re not telling me what | |
to do; I m in charge. When Moshe heard his explanation, | |
LISHMAH, deep listening, it was good in his eyes. He s | |
telling you how hard he had to work for it, because all | |
his reaction mechanisms were saying this is bad; I m | |
losing everything today. | |
We enshrine this idea of the good eye on Shabbos. You re | |
not allowed to criticize others or yourself on Shabbos. | |
BORER, you can t separate a bad thing from good; you can | |
t focus your eye on the bad on Shabbos. Repairing the | |
world is the job of a Jew. The only way you can do this | |
is doing it on Shabbos. If you can t do it one day a | |
week, you don t know when you re scapegoating. People get | |
so easily addicted. People find it extremely difficult to | |
do this on Shabbos. The other 39 malachas is a way of | |
being in the world. The Torah says you have to be present | |
and not try to change things, just be in the world, don t | |
change others, nature, yourself. Be here now. | |
Moshe is searching for the good eye. You learn the most | |
about scapegoating with your siblings. We don t have | |
problems with the Hindus. We have problems with Asav and | |
Ishmael, our siblings. | |
The greater you are, the more G*d is your helpmate | |
against you. He never lets Moshe off the hook. The deep | |
emptiness is where you have to make G*d your helpmate | |
against you. G*d doesn t let him off the hook one inch. | |
He had to wash every day in the mirrors he didn t want to | |
accept. | |
Listen to this line in the song about Miriam: If your | |
father spit in your face, wouldn t you go outside the | |
camp for seven days. When G*d becomes the helpmate | |
against you, wouldn t you want to be that face? Miriam | |
was lonely outside the camp. There were no fireworks, no | |
fiery letters. In the song she says, All I could see were | |
carcasses being stripped by birds. She is outside the | |
camp with a broken heart. When G*d becomes a helpmate | |
against you and you re in the Warsaw Ghetto or you re | |
sick and you feel G*d has abandoned you, that s what | |
Moshe and Miriam are trying to teach us. You become a | |
bigger person in the process. Or you can be a victim and | |
whine. But to find the face of HaShem in the Warsaw | |
Ghetto, you have to get this chumatz thing. | |
On Shabbos: am I really looking at everything with a good | |
eye? The weather? Make a little mark for all the | |
criticisms you do during a day. | |
This weekend is the last performance of a play called K2 | |
done by a friend of mine in the Fox Theater. It was also | |
a very well done movie and the play is even better than | |
the movie. | |
The Torah was given in the wilderness because it is the | |
wilderness. G*d tests those who are closest to him. If | |
you want to embark on this journey of intimacy with | |
HaShem, there s crashing into walls. Finding your anger | |
and growth in the dark room. After 1,000 years of work, | |
the Jewish people rose and received the Torah inside, | |
because they were big enough now to receive the Torah and | |
not die. Esther effectuated what Moshe could not do. | |
The Torah is getting deeper because Deborah Miller is | |
getting closer to death, and the Aish Kodesh is her | |
rebbe. When G*d turns on you and becomes the opposite | |
then you turn, too, and do teshuva. This is the deepest | |
simcha. Moshe instilled a little bit of himself in every | |
Jew. | |
This song is done by Girls In Trouble and I m trying to | |
get their whole CD. Devorah related it to getting cancer. | |
Sometimes nobody asks but you have to go. We believe in | |
this deeper happiness that comes when the angels leave | |
you and you re in this dark space. The Aish Kodesh has | |
this belief that G*d s only desire is to give him good. | |
When we re in the Warsaw Ghetto we understand how much we | |
love HaShem, not how much we hate the Nazis. We don t | |
care about them. | |
We don t eat birds that hold onto their food when they | |
eat. When the scapegoat goes over the cliff, it s | |
torture. We never torture, but we have to get people to | |
register that pain. We have predators on the tapestry of | |
the mishkan to remind us that we re trying to find an | |
antidote to the human predator. G*d made us the biggest | |
consumers of the whole world so we could do teshuva for | |
that. The mishkan is a place where we come and say all | |
the things we did deliberately and not deliberately. It | |
was totally voluntary because nobody else knew about it. | |
You forgot something. A lot of the trouble we get into in | |
relationships are things we didn t intend. | |
G*d said, I didn t create you for a little job to be a | |
tree. Easy isn t in the Torah. Either you rule over it or | |
it will rule over you, even if it s just eating Cherry | |
Garcia. The word REDO means to rule over also means to | |
descend and be ruled over. It s hard to control appetites | |
for food, for attention, for sexuality, for power. In the | |
Shemona Essray which we say three times a day, we say if | |
I ask for something that s bad for me, please don t | |
listen. Teach me the difference between what I need and | |
what I want. This comes when our vessels are bigger. We | |
quote J. Paul Getty who was the richest man in the world | |
who said enough was a little more than he had. We live in | |
a society of More. The key song of freedom in Pesach is | |
Dayenu, it would have been enough for us. My son made up | |
his own verses for that song. He s a paraplegic. | |
Another type of animal we can eat has a reverse claw. | |
Because Moshe threw it in reverse. We need to shorten our | |
time spent in reaction. | |
I saw the Imam and he wants to come back. We have to work | |
on this. It s hard; they re siblings. | |
There s a burnout that happens when you go past your own | |
vessels. This happened to Nadab and Abihu, who chose not | |
to come back to their bodies. Spiritual people don t want | |
to live. Four went into the Garden, one died, one went | |
crazy, one lost his faith. They went past their own | |
vessels. Religion is not a security blanket. They were | |
not married. Akiva was the only one who was married and | |
he is the only one who emerged intact. | |
To change the world you have to cooperate. If Aaron and | |
Moshe had not acted together, they would have been great | |
people, but they would not have changed the world. | |
Barochot page 24B. Listen to this story. Not too many | |
people will teach this story. Rabbi Archa found a teacher | |
of brisas before Rabbi Yehuda. [The Torah is the five | |
books. Beresheit Shemote Vayikra . Then comes the holy | |
writings, not Prophets; Song of Songs, Ecclesiastes, | |
proverbs. That s part of the Tenach. Then we have the | |
writings of the tanyaim. You have to know what the word | |
Torah means. They wrote the Mishna and sayings called | |
Braises, Judah the Prince did not include in the Mishnah. | |
After that came the Amoraim, who wrote the Gemora. Talmud | |
is Gemora plus Mishna. The Mishna is divided into six | |
sidarim, six orders, Seeds, Damages, Laws of Purity, | |
Women. Then there s 24 tractates of the Torah, e.g. | |
Shabbat, Pesachim, Barochot. After the Gemora came a | |
period of writings called Geonim, also Babylonia. The | |
most available are Sadya Gaon. Then came the Rishonim: | |
Rashi, Tosfos, Maimonides, the Reef and the Roshe. Out of | |
their writings comes Shulchan Aruch. The final level is | |
the Archronim, the last ones, where we re at today. All | |
of those levels are called the Torah. The Kabalah (Issac | |
Luria of Sfat in 1500) is different from the Zohar | |
(Shimon Bar Yochaik, first century).] | |
If one is standing is prayer and passes wind, he waits | |
until the odor goes away. Then he prays, Master of the | |
Universe, you formed us with openings (valves) and | |
cavities. It is revealed before You our shame and | |
humiliation and our end will be worms and maggots. He | |
then begins from the place where he stopped. Upon hearing | |
this, Rabbi Abba said, If I had come to hear only this | |
thing, dayenu. This is what it means to be a Jew. | |
Student: One is feeling the shame, owning it, and being | |
thankful for it, recognizing it as another way that | |
HaShem is helping them break that vessel and open up. | |
Student: It s a moment through the embarrassment there s | |
thanks to G*d. It s an excuse for a holy moment. | |
Aish Kodesh is saying everything becomes a revelation. | |
You have to spin the Warsaw Ghetto to make it into a | |
revelation. | |
Student: That spin is the simcha. | |
Shame is such a big thing in the Middle East. People who | |
kill hundreds of thousands of people so they can hold | |
onto power, as opposed to Moshe, who says, okay, take the | |
baton. | |
Iraq was our most stable community for 2,500 years. | |
This week we re studying Parsha HaKodesh. We started with | |
money, we went on to memory. You have to remember all the | |
discouraging moments of your life, which is Amalak, so | |
you can let them go. Otherwise they will ferment, give | |
off gas, and anger and scapegoating and you will be | |
ambushed. In Germany children were to be seen and not | |
heard, and there s a big price to be paid. | |
There s a big mitzvah to make the matzos right before | |
Passover starts. Once you get the dough you can t hold it | |
with both hands; it s too much heat. Making matzo is a | |
profound experience. The flour is the masculine, the | |
water is the feminine, there s mechitzas between them, | |
and it has to go very quickly. There is a sense of high | |
urgency in a matzo factory. You have to throw the dough | |
that doesn t work in a tub of water. | |
Sacred Fire page 309 | |
-This month shall be the head month to you . | |
There s two things going on in this little piece. | |
Changing the calendar to the moon calendar and the Pascal | |
lamb. The moon has degrees. The sun comes up the same way | |
every day. A Jew is waxing and waning. Sometimes the | |
growth comes from the waning, the darkness and we re | |
always reflecting G*d s light. We live in a sun world, | |
which is predictable and secure. The symbol of that is | |
gold. There is no way to predict an earthquake. It was a | |
big deal to change from the sun to the moon. Most people | |
spend their lives trying to get secure. We have higher | |
risk and higher responsibility. We have to take risks, | |
grow, and become bigger people. | |
The lamb was a god in Egypt because they didn t want | |
commerce in sheep. That was our declaration of | |
independence, putting the sheep blood on the door post. | |
Until this point G*d did everything. Four out of five | |
Jews decided not to go out from Egypt. | |
-Why were these two commandments . | |
We like this because we have to think why they are | |
related. | |
Student: They both set the Jewish people on a different | |
path. | |
Your Jewish calendar is a bulwark of differentiation from | |
the American calendar. | |
-According to R. Simeon b. Gamliel . | |
You will have transformed yourself from the male calendar | |
to the female calendar, so you can leave Egypt | |
immediately. | |
-There is another possible explanation . Faith is the | |
soul s way of knowing and seeing. | |
Freud said faith in G*d is a projection of G*d into human | |
fears. And the Aish Kodesh is saying the opposite. | |
Student: This goes against the concept of blind faith. | |
Religious faith is not meant to be a security blanket | |
because at every step we re asking people to take more | |
risk and more responsibility. Freud didn t understand | |
this. There s a very toxic level of doubt that undermines | |
everything. People are very cynical and skeptical and are | |
victims of Amalak attacks. | |
We have to teach people to see through their third eye, | |
their intuition. There s a holy doubt, which is G*d finds | |
room to exist in our minds because we don t know | |
everything. Nadab and Abihu taught us there s an inner | |
connection with HaShem that you don t see from the | |
outside, but it s an inner process. All emptiness is G*d | |
emptiness. Instead of filling our voids with eating or | |
money, we fill it with G*d. | |
-The soul of a Jew senses something . | |
All my rational mind can perceive is the physical world | |
and its measurements. Trusting that knowing is what we re | |
calling faith. | |
The Aish Kodesh is talking about a deep internalized | |
process. | |
-This ability of our soul to perceive is akin to prophecy | |
. | |
Our souls are G*d s candles. | |
-The Jewish people have inherited . | |
The Aish Kodesh says the best test is ask anyone what do | |
they see when they look at a Jew. The Aish Kodesh sees | |
the sons of prophets, the children of believers. He | |
believes in the nobility of our souls. I think it s hard | |
for people to see this. I don t think we see our own | |
nobility. | |
-It seems that there are two types of faith . | |
Aish Kodesh is saying your faith is there, you can t | |
access it at this moment because you re depressed. He | |
doesn t condemn the depression of the people. We live in | |
a very depressed world. We re not rejecting people who | |
are depressed. If Moshe is depressed, he can t be a | |
prophet any more. When Jacob loses Joseph and is | |
depressed, he can t be a prophet any more. Aish Kodesh | |
says you re depressed for good reason, but I can teach | |
you to be b simcha even here, in the Warsaw Ghetto. | |
-If we look at a person s body . | |
It required a conscious rational effort. | |
-Incidentally, this explains . | |
He s talking about a very complicated subject, | |
rationality and going beyond rationality to have a | |
spiritual life. | |
FINAL REMARKS | |
Student: We re talking about the darkest moments and how | |
do we find a reason to exist and find the essence of who | |
we are? | |
Aish Kodesh talks about a deeper sense of joy that comes | |
from this process. | |
Student: The brokenness, how when you re broken, that s | |
where HaShem can come in and enlarge Himself in you. And | |
I don t like that. | |
You can enlarge yourself and make more room for Him. | |
Student: My Dad passed in January and my whole faith was | |
shaken. | |
This is the fourth step, the moon, the renewal of the | |
moon that everything a Jew sees is something totally new, | |
whether it s passing gas or a new event in your life. | |
Student: I like the Girls in Trouble. When your skin | |
turns to snow, this is my bar mitzvah portion. Also with | |
the Aish Kodesh, where he likens the function of the soul | |
to the autonomic parts of the body which we can t | |
consciously access, but we can access it through ritual. | |
Student: I get his tremendously empathetic pastoral | |
sympathies. He says faith is in our DNA and if you re not | |
a prophet you re a child of prophets. The nobility and | |
spiritualism you have as a Jew is inherited and imprinted | |
within you and you ll find a way to connect to it. Hitler | |
said the same thing, but his response was to want to kill | |
them. The second thing that was remarkable to me was this | |
point in the parsha where we re halfway through the | |
Torah, DARASH, inquired insistently. It s our balance | |
point (Rabbi: It s empty space), the Jewish outlook that | |
it s balance, you find it by looking deeply. | |
Student: I could say a lot about just getting to tonight | |
and my mom being on the phone. When you were talking | |
about really having to distinguish between need and want, | |
I was thinking about how that relates to the heart being | |
a broken vessel and the beauty of breaking that vessel. | |
When I admit that I need something, it s painful, like | |
the vessel breaking. | |
Rabbi: Many people are ashamed to ask for help. | |
Student: HaShem had a plan that we d be in Egypt 400 | |
years, but when we partnered with HaShem, HaShem s will | |
changed. It s a beautiful teaching about what can happen | |
when we re in relationship with HaShem and being an | |
active part of that relationship. When you were talking | |
about the third eye, it doesn t belong up there, that | |
that real organ of perception and connecting with the | |
world and spirituality is more the mouth and throat, | |
between the heart and eyes our cries and our words is our | |
really strong organ of perception. | |
Student: My mother reduces this whole structure to a | |
security blanket: if you get comfort, it s okay for you. | |
It s like getting an elbow in the stomach. Yet she | |
overrode her rational mind to keep chumatz out of the | |
house at Passover. Breaking and getting bigger resonates. | |
I don t know why I keep kosher or cover my hair. | |
Student: Faith is the soul s way of knowing ties to | |
everything else. It s not just about what we see | |
rationally, there s something beyond that. That s very | |
comforting for me. | |
Rabbi Henoch Dov teaches in Denver, Colorado. You can | |
contact him through his web page, www.RabbiHenochDov.com | |
or via email [email protected]. | |
References | |
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