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	entry 13 (:on nightmares about war)
	february 27th, 2025
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	i dropped off julia at the ferry early this morning
	i woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare

	i lived in my previous apartment and all devices with any
	capacity to receive electro-magnetic signals blared out the
	news of a war started from within the country
	some foreign force had established next to the city that i
	grew up and have spent most of my life in, and now they
	were shelling ineighborhood after neighborhood
	my balcony was facing the other way than it should, from it
	i could see the apartment across the street being struck by
	bombshell after bombshell after bombshell burning as it was
	torn down to rubble
	looking up i instantly recognized the curved aereal trace
	of impending death and that was the cue for me waking up

	i feel terrible
	i've had so much to do today so me sitting here and writing
	this down is the first thing today that could be considered
	rest or winding down or unloading
	this too shall pass
	tomorrow will be a good day and i look forward to the
	challenge of not treating myself the daily servings of news
	from all atrocities the world is converging around

	it should really be seen as a treat and not a challenge