I follow a lot of Internet Really out of sorts with the
drama, it's fascinating to me that Internet these days, I hover around
there's this almost-parallel to WWE it like a_
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I suddenly had a really huge Feeding on the bits and pieces
urge to read Heavy Metal comics. the big fish leave in their wake as
they feed. But I'm already in a
I had an epiphany that really small pond.
busy livestream chats are like
mainlining the public Twitter feed.
Just a firehose of chatter that you
can pick little strands of 02_
conversation out of.
Sometimes I feel comfortable
I think about_ writing and, rarely, I feel
confident writing but often I feel
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_trading a lot and I've noticed that with time that
it has so much money laundering feeling erodes somewhat, I look at
energy it almost glows in the dark. things I made years ago for the
Publicity makes a shady deal look first time in a long time and I can
legit and by tugging on social media see that they were good, but at the
hype they're able to get so many time they looked fake, like I was
eyes on these obscure "art deals" wearing a costume.
that they legitimize them with
almost zero effort. True or not It's especially_
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03_ _when what I'm
writing or drawing or creating is
For a few days I've been of two ostensibly very simple. I like the
minds whether to post this because clumsy aesthetic of a
I'm not sure I have enough good slapped-together thing but it's very
karma to tank such a radioactive difficult to replicate and any time
cancellable blow to my armor but it I try it comes out feeling like
is what it is. I chickend out and artifice.
I'm writing it for this zine instead
of posting it on my main Gopher log I forgot what I was trying to say
in the hopes it'll give me a running but that's how these shows run I
start to polish my halo but, fuck suppose.
it, who cares. If I feel like I need
to remove it I can, if I need to
revise it or if my mind is changed,
I can do that too. 04_
I have a problem with the_ I deleted a couple drafts for
being too much trouble. I didn't
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spicy, just coincidentally spicy.
_vaccination and until recently I've
had difficulty articulating why. I Enough of that. Presently I'm
heared it posited that the watching a video during my break and
reluctance to vaccinate is a kind of just spacing out. I watch a lot of
peacefull protest and then it content about Internet eccentrics,
clicked, that really helped me put it keeps me_
into words why I'm bothered. The
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thing developed is the government █▀▄██ ▀▀▄▄ ▀██
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denies any knowledge of it is the
government that manhandled _but I
controlling the spread is the wouldn't say it's very wholesome.
government that now wants to make There's always worse things I could
the vaccines mandatory. It's the be doing!
same actors and now they want to
medicate me against my will and that I have this naive project I'm
makes me nervous. piecing together that I'll let loose
once I'm done with this one. Around
In my mind body autonomy is a the same space and at the same speed
human right. Across the board, be it but if everything goes to plan it'll
abortion, gender reassignment be a collaborative work, which will
surgery, right to die or a be a lot of fun to put together.
(potential) vaccine mandate and
anything that trespasses on that
right should be stood up against.
It's got nothing to do with the risk
of side effects or the rush to
market or any of that, it's that
we've reached the point where I feel
like I need to draw a line. It's the
same for any other protest. An
environmental protestor chaining
themselves to a tree isn't doing it
because they think that this
particular forest needs to be saved,
they aren't doing it because they
think the loggers will throw up
their hands and give up, they're
doing it because this is the point
where enough was enough and they
needed to say "no more" - whether it
be effective or not.
By declining the vaccine I'm
saying that I belive so strongly
that you can not cross this line
that whatever increased risk I face
or whatever threats or sanctions or
bribes are offered to me to comply
are burdens worth standing up to.
These are my feelings, formed
from my life experience, make of
them what you will. I could be
mislead and be dead wrong but as it
stands now, that's where I landed. 23_
