Stream of consciousness
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I'm writing much less than I used to. That's in part due to a lot
of work during the day and relatively short time to work on
projects during the evening/morning. However, as the world goes by
at increasing speed, it gets hard to not to feel overwhelmed. Some
days are quieter than others, but on this Monday morning I'm really
feeling the force of the kinetic energy pushing. This is going to
be a tough week work-wise, a kick-off week of some sort, with quite
a lot of associated stress.

There's also a little feeling of excitement. I know a lot will
probably happen. Seems like excitement often comes with
apprehension. It's strange. Why am I adding unneeded anxiety to the
mix? If something wrong happens, then be it. No amount of
apprehension would prevent it. Seems rather logical, right? Well,
it still doesn't help so much. Perhaps I'm just unreasonable. Or
perhaps I just need a good vacation. Not the kind where I stay
home, but the kind where I go somewhere. A mountain maybe? Take a
little retreat from the speed, the noise, the "now" and the let my
only anxiety be to know if the coffee is good.

It's okay to slow down, but I tend to forget about it. Doing things
is addictive, may it be at work, or on personal projects. What
matters is the reason we're doing something. Is it for the
serotonin rush, the feeling of accomplishment that comes with it?
If so, perhaps it's good to revisit the motivations. Chasing the
next serotonin hit is a slippery slope that narrows perspectives
and will only take you so far. And in what direction?

So hey, let this be the theme of this week for me.

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