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(Blue Cheer) | |
July 24, 2023 | |
About a month ago I did a rare, punctuated, big social outing, going to a | |
music festival. Me and my partner live a rather quiet life, socially | |
speaking, by design. She's a heavy introvert, and I'm a recovering | |
misanthrope. But I still need people and new experiences. The festival did | |
what I hope these big events would do, bring some new perspective into my | |
life, enough to enrich it. | |
It was an outdoor punk festival in Oakland, which ended up being exactly | |
what I thought it was going to be: freaky, loud, raucous, colorful, but | |
gentle and accepting simultaneously. My show partners were my friend | |
Parrot (no, not her real name), whom I'm starting to get close to, and my | |
quasi-nephew Raven, who I am learning more about every time we hang out. | |
This isn't intended to be an entry about the show, though, it's supposed | |
to be the after effects. | |
I came away from the event knowing I need to make some changes in my life. | |
Well, this isn't completely accurate, because I know that I've needed to | |
make these changes, I actually came away resolving to make the changes. | |
One, is to lose weight. I've put on more than a few in the recent years. | |
While in some ways I'm decently physically active, the weight has taken | |
its toll. Two, communicate more on a daily basis. Sometimes I feel, | |
lately, that I'm so much in my head, that I'm losing vocabulary and the | |
ability to formulate ideas into words. This isn't completely natural to me | |
as a native thinking process, my internal dialog is not exactly verbal. | |
And third, I resolved to listen to more music. I'm a podcast junkie, and | |
not always in a positive way. Though they can be enriching | |
informationally, I also am just addicted to the drone of familiar voices | |
and subjects sometimes. They also have a tendency to do the opposite of | |
what I need, they put a wedge between me and life. Hearing people talk | |
about things pushes me too far into an abstract space. I already have an | |
issue with feeling disconnected with my environment, I need to be pulled | |
in. Music does that, it at least connects me to feelings in a way subject- | |
oriented discussions do not. And I can have my cake and eat it too, and | |
nerd out about music stuff. | |
It's been a subtle shift, but now there is more music in my life, which | |
leads to discovery of new bands. Fuck, man, Blue Cheer, their first two | |
albums are amazing. I love liminal music, bands that define genres, sounds | |
that can't quite be confined to a time and place. They do this, they go | |
hard in `68, so hard they inspired punk, metal and grunge. And they were a | |
mess, which love. Dick Clark told them backstage before an American | |
Bandstand performance that they're the types that give a bad name to Rock | |
and Roll, how is that an insult, that's more rock and roll than anything | |
I've heard. And this fun bit from Wikipedia, "The group underwent several | |
personnel changes, the first occurring after the 1968 release of | |
Outsideinside after Leigh Stephens left the band due to musical | |
differences or, as some report, deafness." This had me laughing. | |
Anyway, getting back to music discovery is good. Much like I believe Love | |
led me to California, and The Pentangle opened a portal to my homestead, | |
maybe Blue Cheer will move me somewhere. | |