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June 05, 2020 | |
This last week with the renewed BLM protests and associated riots I've | |
been toggling mostly between two modes, preoccupation with current events | |
and working on planning out building my shop with an unprecedented fervor. | |
I was talking to the SO the other day. I mentioned that I've been | |
incredibly anxious lately an unable to concentrate on work, I explained | |
that with the COVID stuff happening and with the racial unrest in the | |
country that I feel on edge, watchful, and helpless. She responded, "Oh, | |
and I thought you were anxious because of my work anxiety spilling over on | |
you." She's a rather anxious person herself and is making a big career | |
transition, and has a tendency to disregard the type of advice I give, | |
she's stubborn, much like me. This all ends up leaving me feeling on edge, | |
watchful, and helpless. | |
Ultimately, I don't know that there's just one source to my anxiety, and | |
I'm quite sure all the problems are actual problems. I'll do what I can do | |
to help, and I'll keep earning a few bucks at my job, and I'll build out | |
my shop. My impact barely makes an impression with my SO, I have less | |
hopes for really making things move in centuries-old racial tensions, or | |
viral onslaughts. So I'll balance it all out with nailing sticks together | |
into a shelter that I can hole up in and nail other things together within | |
it. | |