date: Wed 02 Jul 2025 10:04:56 PM PDT | |
subj: computing addiction | |
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Long ago I read the book: Underground | |
The Book: Underground | |
7/02/2025 this document | |
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SUELETTE DREYFUS JULIAN ASSANG | |
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http://www.underground-book.com/ | |
Hacking, madness and obsession on the electronic frontier | |
‘Gripping, eminently readable.. Dreyfus has uncovered one of this | |
country’s best kept secrets and in doing so has created a highly | |
intense and enjoyable read’ -- Rolling Stone | |
By Suelette Dreyfus with | |
Research by Julian Assange | |
First Published 1997 by Mandarin | |
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In that book there was talk of the people busted for hacking. | |
Their excuse was based on having an addiction, addicted to | |
hacking. At the time I read it I was doing a fair amount of | |
computing, but I had a problem with the idea of their addiction. | |
I've never been a hacker, I've only been a computer user. When I | |
read of computer addiction at the time I didn't really think of | |
my career and use of computers as a problem. I thought I like | |
computers, and doing computing, but this isn't something to | |
actually get addicted to. I like riding my bike, but I wouldn't | |
say I'm addicted to it (or I wouldn't have, maybe I would now). | |
When I read the book Hackers Heroes of the Computer Revolution, | |
a different idea about computing addiction appeared in my mind, | |
related to computer widow. A term for a computer user who no | |
longer has a wife because they spent too much time computing and | |
not enough time building their relationship with their | |
significant other. But still am I a computer addict? | |
As I spend my days doing whatever it is but specifically when a | |
computer isn't involved at all, I get this urge to want to use | |
the computer. The longer I go without using the computer, the | |
more I want to use it. If I'm still not using the computer in | |
some way, I'll turn on youtube and find a video where someone | |
else is using, talking about, or showing a computer. Eventually | |
I start looking at one of my computers. I dream about how it can | |
connect to another system. I start to imagine what its like | |
going some other system in specific ways. For instance, I'll | |
think about installing MSDos on a system and then trying to | |
access SDF, or Thunix, or possibly some BBS. | |
Using my computer at work almost doesn't count. Work has nothing | |
in the realm of interface that allures me to feel like I'm | |
computing. | |
After I watched some youtube video or read something on the nets | |
about addiction, and technology was among one of the things to | |
be addicted to, I wondered if my desires for computing | |
qualified me in the addicted to shtuff category of people. I | |
started thinking about my silly gopher log space here and how I | |
write and post on it. Everything resides on a 3.5 inch floppy. I | |
compose to on a new file on that floppy, then I transfer the | |
file to SDF. The writing itself enables my use of computers. One | |
thought was is this very act of writing feeding my addiction? | |
How many others on the SDF phlog would consider themselves as | |
computer addicts or some derivative of computing. | |
I feel safe in this computer world with the light text on black | |
background. Nothing hurts me, most times I'm not frustrated | |
doing stuff here. The illusion of control remains and doesn't | |
seem to fade (as long as the computer turns on). | |
My father in law, a great man, man I wish I could be like at | |
times, but I'll never be able to live up to what he did. At one | |
point he would get used computers for cheap, repair them, and | |
resell them. He tells me about how many he sold, and his | |
ratings. He really enjoyed it, and he was proud that he made a | |
little bit of money doing it. He has his computer pile of older | |
systems he keeps running. He doesn't do much on his computers, | |
but if they are not in working order he isn't happy. He's older | |
now and sometimes needs my help installing a linux system on | |
those old beasts. I'm happy to help him. He thinks its work for | |
me, but for me its what I like doing, and even better because | |
I'm helping him and not myself. But he frets about my time a | |
bit. He never described himself as a computer user, or a hacker, | |
or an addict, but the computer bug certain has bit him. The | |
times he spent using them and working on them stuck with him. | |
Like myself the machine has stuck with me and bit me too. | |
Are we all computer addicts disguised as hobbyist or IT pros? | |
I wonder is writing a better choice than gaming? | |