Thoughts on something you said, about feeling a lot of remorse over things
you may have done in the past to others, things you were not happy with.
That just means you--like most very intelligent people who aren't selfish
psychopaths--have a highly sensitive conscience.
i don't think this detracts from one's Alpha-ness. In fact it confirms
it.
Noblesse oblige: the idea that someone who is a member of a superior
minority has responsibilities to hold oneself to a higher standard, and to
treat others accordingly.
What is the root of the word 'virtue', interestingly enough?
Vir = man.
Traditionally, to be virtuous actually meant to possess the positive qualities
of the dominant male. How 'being virtuous' has been redefined to apply
only to hypermoral-sexually-dysfunctional ladies of the Suzie Scowl-Snatch and
Prudence Pickle-Puss type...is just
another sad degradation of the English language.
Also, when thinking of past flaws and lapses we have committed. Usually
the passage of time + self-criticism = makes whatever the thing was appear
worse than it actually was. Usually the thing in question is considered
trivial and is long-forgotten by the person it was done to.
The fundamental desire of the human animal, if s/he is not completely
degraded, is self-actualization; moving closer to understanding of
perfection.
When we encounter that confidence and self-possession, we want to attach
ourselves to it, submit to it.
Looking at it from the other side of the fence; the desire to be corrected
and guided and disciplined is acknowledgment that there is something
closer to perfection than we are, and our desire to transcend and ascend
draws us to it, helplessly.
