If waking up today with the mother of all hangovers tell me one thing then it
is that i need to make a change.
For years now i don't like the way the world is heading and i tend to get a bit
depressed about it, more so since the covid lockdowns. I found out that a
small glass of whiskey in the evening at least eased my mind enough that i was
finally able relax a bit and shove the negative thoughts away. The side effect
of this was, that i did got a taste for whiskey, looking back the last two
years perhaps a bit too much of it...
Do i consider myself a person who has problems with alcohol? No, of course not.
But i think that would also be something an alcoholic would say... hmm...
Ok, time for a little self assessment
How much do i drink at the moment?
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About a bottle whiskey a week
Do i have problems without it?
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Not really, if i forget to buy some i can go days without it without having
the sudden urge to go to the gas station to buy some in the middle of the
night, BUT i have a growing "Man, NOW a nice glass of whiskey would be nice"
feeling in the evenings.
Did my tolerance increase?
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Definitively! A small glass two years ago would having me notice it very much,
now two or three glasses letting me fairly easy stay sober enough to code or
following a political debate. Though... the hangovers got worse.
Did it influence my life or relationships in a negative way?
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Nope, everything fine so far... except the vile hangover now and then.
Did i do something under influence which i wouldn't do without?
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Nope, as i only drink sitting comfortable on the couch reading a book or
listening to music... in a bar or restaurant i only drink alcohol-free beer
or a soft drink.
So... what is my problem? At the moment only the hangovers when i had one
glass too much in the evening and the observation that the hangovers are
getting worse. This lead to a bit of concern regarding the long term health
effects which i want to monitor as a soon-to-be dad. Perhaps i also read a bit
too much in the net regarding all things around alcoholism, and the regularity
it has become worries me a bit.
So... what is the conclusion? No alcohol anymore at least for a while.
