One of the scariest things for many people is being alone. Alone
with their thoughts. Meditation frightens people. It's
isolation. You realize that "voices in the head" aren't for
crazy people. They're for all people. We all have a multitude of
voices, images, music, noise, ideas, calculations, all happening
seemingly at once. You can experience it even walking or doing
any activity but you have to ask yourself a series of questions
on an ongoing basis. I have this "inner dialogue" CONSTANTLY
going on in my head. I ask myself all the who what where type
questions to myself. If I'm busy on a task and I suddenly get
either overstressed or suddenly bored, I look up and ask myself,
"Who am I doing this for?" and really trace it back. Sometimes
I'm doing it because I "have to". Why do I "have to"? With a few
moments of thought, I can usually trace it back to something.
Could be a few words of mean girls in the 4th grade that I was
trying to please. Or an art teacher that criticized my owl
drawing in the 3rd grade. Or the piano teacher with the chips on
the back of the hands. Much of what we do is to satisfy ghosts
of our pasts that are far from present currently. ===
