Well Heather, I don't know how you do it, but you somehow manage
to get my "Flow" state going and the words come tumbling out.
I'm stlll in the process of retraining myself. Sometimes I find
myself in a toxic, repeating act of a play - where I end up
saying the same things I don't want to say after hearing the
same things I don't want to hear - and it's very hard to say
STOP to yourself and chan...ge rewrite the script. And with
people close to you, sometimes you can't rewrite the script. All
you can do is take that scene out of the play altogether. An
example in my life is this: I have this urge to be Mr. Fix-It.
With everything. But - I'm either a fast-fixer - or I'm a
thorough fixer. Fix-it too quick ("ger 'er
done/bandaid/ducttape.. and it works) or too thorough, "Gotta do
everything by the book". "
