You've identified in that statement one of the things I seem to
have a fundamental 'flaw' with; identifying the most interesting
parts. I have a categorization problem.
Fought it my whole life. I see so many categories; so much
potential cross-referencing. I can't help but see things in
multiple contexts simultaneously and really, it's kind of
annoying; it's kind of a handicap really but I try to make the
best of it.
I tried to trace back the problem.
In school, standardized testing I'd get 99.999-whatever% on
everything except for one: Comprehension. I think it's English
comprehension or something like that. I'd always get around 60%
I noticed it in elementary school, middle school, high school;
on all of the Standardized tests.
I remember the questions: It was things like "What was the
author's intention?" "What is the main point of paragraph 3?"
things like that.
I have a high vocabulary; I can read anything and understand it.
I've gotten better at comprehending intention through the
decades since school. But I usually come up with answers that
are *different* than standard answers. It's almost as if I have
an avoidance for the "normal interpretation". It's in front of
me, but I just don't see it.
Hence, categorization. Categories are fluid things to me; not
hard and fast. This flaw, while it never affected me negatively
in most of life, nevertheless is a stumbling block I bang my
head up against whenever I try to tackle it.
Show me black and white and I ignore them and focus on the line
inbetween and wonder what's under the tiles and how are they so
shiny. Stuff like that.
Sounds nice. But it's a pain in the butt, honestly. *sigh*.
Sorry for ranting. It's one thing to say "be different" but to
*be-different" and know it and not really even have a name for
it? A pain.
*sigh* Oh well. Sorry for the rant but I use every response I
make to learn _something_ about myself, even if it's veiled in
other ways. I don't have really have any other intentions when I
start writing - I just.. write and know I'll learn myself a
little better through whatever the output is; and I hope
something I write helps someone else in some way with
themselves.
