across the vast emptiness of the Internet, you put a few words
out there, hoping to engage with another human being.
b) your message was received. "seen by 9" it says.
c) you already got a few responses.
So, you're not invisible.
For myself, that "safety net" feeling is one I've had to develop
for myself. Usually it's routines. A lot of it is doing exactly
what you're doing: reaching out to people across the Internet
and hoping to get a Like, a response - a "seen by" - _anything_.
I'm kinda of hooked on it. I think it helps keep me feeling a
part of something.
Yet then there's people that I've had to remove their permission
to emotionally manipulate me. My emotions are mine and the
people that try to play with them - making me feel guilty or
sorry for myself or stupid... they lose their right to do that
to me.
I still deal with them. But it's mechanical. They can get mad,
but their words are from their angry spot and it becomes their
personal problem.
It takes practice though - developing the shield of protection.
Yeah, I usually get obsessed over some project and let it take
over as much time as I can. Then the abuse is like this thing to
endure just as long as I have to until I can get back to
whatever my project is.
