I, too, know the sensation well. I have a possible solution, one
that has worked well for me.
I didn't have a father or a strong male role model. So, I
cobbled one together and decided as a teenager, "I will become
my own Father".
Now I'm 43 years old. I tell my younger selves (different ages)
about the world as I see it, and raise myself. I try to fix the
old hurts by helping them understand.
I also attempt to do this for others. I put on my Obi Won Kenobi
demeanor, sometimes a Yoda, or some other Mentor figure, and try
to give the kind of advice to others that I would have loved to
have received when I was younger.. or even now.
In this very message, this is what I'm doing now - helping two
people.
Finding the perfect words to connect understanding with someone
isn't always easy but it's worth the effort. For each person I
sense I've connected with at some deeper or higher level, even
for a moment, I feel as if I am the Father standing next to me
that I didn't have, inserting myself through Time into all of
those places of hurt fixing them and fixing myself in the
process.
Just food for thought. Your pain is uniquely your own, as no two
people have identical experiences and feelings, but I can
relate. I hope this helps.
