Having suffered from poor vision my entire life, I'm aware of

Having suffered from poor vision my entire life, I'm aware of
contrast but for me, the sharp lines of contrast are less
impressive - perhaps due to not getting glasses 'til I was 7 and
having extreme nearsightedness.

There are two mechanisms in the brain for discerning objects;
the one that makes the imaginary crispy lines of perspective and
outlining objects, and the other for the color and the texture
and the fuzzies stuff of appearance.

Also not seeing in 3D in the same way as binocular vision (I
tell by size difference, not by binocular vision... making my
only 3 months of baseball in 7th grade somewhat frightening to
me to be in the outfield once, as a ball came _straight at me_
and I watched it get bigger, but couldn't get my glove in the
right place quickly enough.... my system of crispy lines was
probably utilized for different purposes, I suppose.

The machine is in there, but it got repurposed. I'm still trying
to figure out "for what", but I'm thinking it's used for
analysis of properties and attempts at clarity of expression by
pointing out subtleties of color graduations, fuzziness,
textures and variation.

I've always been obsessed by detail.

If you can deal with squeaky 7 yr old Kenneth Udut,
[1]https://soundcloud.com/.../snowflake-song-kenneth-udut-age-7
I wanted to play the sound of a snowflake falling, "In every
detail" and then apologized because I couldn't finish (because I
ran out of piano room - not enough octaves) -

"Well, I didn't finish but, it was good, wasn't it?" -
apologizing yet assuming it was good, yet expressing a tiny bit
of doubt.

"Yes it was", I sang and played in 3 abrasive notes that sought
resolution to the chord

"Yes it was" I sang and replayed the broken up chord with
certainty, finalizing it with the chord playing at once and
saying "yes".

It's not that I'm narcissistic, but in the processes of trying
to discern Universal truths, I find it's been important to go
back through my own personal history to try to understand my
*own* beliefs, thought patterns, from the past and drawing my
straight lines and contrast from the past to the present, to
improve my future self.

References

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1. https://soundcloud.com/kenneth-udut/snowflake-song-kenneth-udut-age-7