I can "feel" social pressure very quickly. I was always very
sensitive to it and I would avoid it. I do things because I
*choose* to but I weigh out more than my own wants. I've always
been a kind of 'systems thinker'. The lunch room in school: 3rd
grade, I'd see the chaos around me and I could see how it could
be arranged more effectively, how the lunch lines should go, how
the teachers were ALL doing it wrong and how the students were
bouncing around like superballs in a rubber room. I see
systems-of-people everywhere I go. People movements, patterns,
whatever. My own part in the process has less to do with
obligation or want and more to do with "what paths can I take
that will retain or improve the system's functioning as it
stands without placing undue pressure on me (more than I can
handle)"? The words I'm CHOOSING are a system, as are the
feelings and thoughts that I'm choosing to place here. So,
that's why verbage like wants and obligations are a little
strange to me. It's more like levers and pulleys to me and my
part is working towards a smoothly running machine and what I do
is what I sense needs to be done/said to achieve that. == Oh
they can tell me to find a better system all they like. This is
an internal system of balance. They can have their own systems.
yeah, anytime somebody tries to mess with my systems it's
annoying. In times like those, I learn to play along just enough
to fulfill the needs of their system unless I can incorporate
their system into my system properly, which means their system
would have to ALREADY be compatible with mine. If it isn't,
well, they'll just get me going through the motions and I'll get
lazier and slower and less efficient and less effective until
they find somebody else. But most of the time, I can manage my
part in other people's systems as well, as long as they don't
have me on a particular time schedule. My system takes priority.
They may never see my system and they may even believe that I'm
a completely within their system, but I never am. Never have
been. == I'd put up cones around the tree and hope nobody checks
the legality of the cones. Hopefully once they do, because those
systems and processes are very slow, there's a good chance that
I'll have caught the coon by then, removed the setup. Then if
there's a fine I'll pay it but meanwhile I will have
accomplished my goal. == I wasn't even thinking about safety
either - I guess it's just a happenstance. Here was my thought
process: By placing the cones around the tree, I have
temporarily converted public property into PRIVATE PROPERTY - in
short _my_ property. Since the cone area was now my property, my
rights to that property would have to be respected by the public
and they will have to go around it. == " Interesting way to look
at it, at that point it was all propose and no obligation" ===
Indeed, although it does fulfill one important obligation:
communication. I'm communicating to the public. That's an
obligation. But I'm doing it in a minimal and localized way. A
more legitimate communication with the public would be to
contact local authorities (who are representatives of the
public) to get approval of my operation. But then, that would
stand in the way of my purpose which has time limitations that
they cannot accomadate.
