*finally* - found a theory that's closest to where I've been
  working on. It's not ''it'' but at least there is a body of
  knowledge that's scientifically verified as a possibility
  already and smarter minds than me have been working on it for a
  while now. *Holonomic Brain Theory*. I knew I couldn't be alone
  with some of these ideas. I'll glean from it quickly, so I don't
  get sucked in an become a devotee (always a danger in research)
  but it's comforting to know I'm on the right track, or at least
  not alone xD