hahaha actually Naw, Joseph you are one of the most creative,
  artistic, inventive, insightful, amazing people that I know. And
  I'm not just saying that because you're awesome and blow my mind
  on a regular basis. Not quite being able to get "it" out of the
  mind to be able to show the world what's inside is VERY
  frustrating. It's *almost* possible but its never 100%
  satisfactory. THAT'S depressi...ng. BUT: it doesn't have to be.
  Imagine if you gave up being a Creative and a Creator when you
  were very little, because somebody was having a bad day and
  decided your art wasn't worth their time and you simply, GAVE UP
  forever, or worse, channeled your creativity into chronic Lying?
  No! You are HONEST, not just to the world, but to yourself. And
  you are your harshest, hardest critic. All the flaws you see are
  because you are SO CLOSE to it all; your ... "