I've been worshipping the amazing powers and processes of the
  mind. I'm trying to figure out the "Now" part of experience,
  trying to stay FAR AWAY from poetry, analogies, other people's
  "complete theories" so as not to taint my own... and I'm trying
  to find that "something" that everybody else (scientists,
  schools) are missing, but that people intuitively "know" and I
  wand to prove that "it's real" - on a
  biochemical/physical/actual level. That's my worship right now.
  3 months now. Completely entrenched. "