It's hard to do but it does help a tiny bit: You did the best
you could at the time. You love that girl with all your heart
and soul as does Linda. You have done all that can be done. But
you remember 18: You need independence. You need to "break away"
- it's almost a compulsion that can't be helped. I don't have
the details - but i remember being there. And i was a jerk to
everybody I loved.... The more I loved someone, the worse thay
got treated. one girlfriend I had at college, I treated her
awfully (I thought i was being "funny" but I was just being
hurtful). I never forgot how bad/stupid/immature I was, and I
vowed (after I was about 24-25) to not be that way again. And
I've worked on it - and keep working on the "dark side" ever
since. "You only hurt the ones you love" is the truth. You did
all you can do, John. But feeling guilty is no... "
