it's probably because i want to be santa claus, make everybody
happy and i haven't the slightest idea how. i want the best for
people and do what i can with what i know how to do to try to
increase happiness for others but then i never know if i'm doing
the right things, the wrong things, or its best to do nothing
and try not to worry about it. i'll probably never figure it
out, really. "