it's probably because i want to be santa claus, make everybody
  happy and i haven't the slightest idea how. i want the best for
  people and do what i can with what i know how to do to try to
  increase happiness for others but then i never know if i'm doing
  the right things, the wrong things, or its best to do nothing
  and try not to worry about it. i'll probably never figure it
  out, really. "