I didn't have a name for the emotion because it was complicated,
  so I wrote it in the form of the story and let the empathy of
  the reader figure out the emotional state of the boy == I'm the
  guy that wrote the story smile emoticon Apparently, in 1st
  grade, I'd connect vocabulary words into a story which impressed
  the teacher, who I kinda wanted to impress because I remember
  having a boy-crush on her. The words supposedly had nothing to
  do with each other but they all fit together to me. I can also
  describe thing in an S way - very useful skill - but as I'm
  describing something in an S way, they don't hear the real story
  that formed in my mind that's bursting at the seams to be told
  ==