Well, I suspect I'm on the autistic spectrum somewhere. Could be
wrong about that. Might be a nice sociopath - I dunno. I don't
like people having bad feelings generally because I'm empathetic
and I don't like the awkward sensation of knowing someone's
having bad feelings. At the same time, it's not life-or-death
for me either. I can turn it off as well mostly. I can turn my
own on and off when I need to. Might make me sociopathic? I
dunno. I automatically sense someone's feelings - even online
when someone's writing and I read for a bit; it's not hard to
see if someone's lying or honest, genuine or fake, feeling or
trolling or thinking or whatever. Just have to see their writing
for a bit. But it's a feeling, not something I put into words
automatically. But, I -can- put it into words if I have to. I
know I'm not black + white generally. Sometimes I can be. But I
don't think being black+white is something that's exclusive to
sociopath or autistic either. = Well, afaik, sociopath is now
officially an word that USED to mean something in psychiatric
circles, but now it's a word in common use. They've changed the
standards and removed it from the manual. == Oh that. I've done
both. I own/run a business now. Once I had a fancy systems
analyst job. Temp work before that. But I don't overly stress
when I can help it. As long as I have basics, I'm fine. My
basics aren't 3rd world basics granted, but basic for 1st world.
== I've seen few ppl with deep emotional attachments except to
their pets and kids maybe. I've seen a lot of marriages faking
it well. Some have 'true love' but I think the "truly
understanding someone's feelings" thing is a bit of mythology. I
tend to see relationships of people constantly negotiating. But
there's love in there - it's not all Adam Smith. == Criminal
psychologists tell a nice story that ppl want to hear about the
wicked man that murdered their [person of import to them] ==
THEN AGAIN: If I'm on the autistic spectrum and/or in the
sociopath/aspd category and have "shallow emotions" - I _would_
see things that way, and be incapable of anything deeper.
There'd be no way for me to know.
