"Is it possible you've only reconciled death abstractly?"
Abstraction is mostly how I think I do things. A weird
combination of metaphor and literal. Two extremes I think.
The experience of death isn't something one can ever deal with
because you don't know when it's coming. You can THINK you're
dying - even then, death is an abstraction - a fear based upon
whatever images/ideas come from the past to bear on the present.
But that's not death. That's fear.
We won't know actual death until we've died.
Until then, it's an abstraction. I'm abstracting with a - for my
life and ???? for death. Someone else might abstract imagining
how death might feel: The movies are great abstractions for
dealing with death because we can die hundreds of times until
we're no longer afraid of death.
Well, we think we're not afraid of death.
Someone else might abstract death by studying about it. Learning
about it. It's still an abstraction.
The experience is the only non-abstract form of death.
We only get to do that one, once.
So, I pick the abstraction that works for me and puts the
abstraction of death that I'm currently comfortable with, which
is the ????.
