Thank you - that really means a lot to me. I still practice
  appreciation. It gets easier, although at first it's strange,
  like we're breaking an unspoken taboo of, "Not cool to show
  appreciation"

  You do it freely when you're young, adolescent and young adult
  pressures often take it away because you feel as if you're
  supposed to "be a man" and appreciation is not part of the
  package...

  ..then you realize... "Wait, that's BS", then unlearn, then
  you're able to do it again. That's the path it seemed to go for
  me.

  I'm also very glad we reconnected and I really appreciate what
  you said there and I'm taking it to heart; most importantly, I'm
  glad you exist.