Yeah; I always had a weird view of Time, like looking straight
at now, way backwards and way ahead at the same time. Yet I
never knew what I was gonna be doing the very next minute, or
the next day or next year even. I remember getting a strange
inspiration from Comedians, smartasses, and ppl saying things
like, "In the Future, you will do or be [x]..." But not because
I'd really agree with them deep down. But it was more like, "You
don't know my future!" combined with "but I'll keep that in the
back of my mind". Sort of like a measuring stick - how much am I
similar/different than/nothing like what that person said. Every
prediction someone older than me (or my peers) made about me
when I was younger was completely wrong. Yet, little bits and
pieces were right.* The people that were the most right?* The
weird and funny, odd, eccentric wizard-next-door people, the cat
ladies, the oddballs. Like right now, you're into photography.*
Will you always be?* Who the heck knows :D But there's stuff you
do/think that spills over into other parts of life that seem to
have nothing to do with photography and helps bring a kind of
clarity, focus, way of looking and thinking about the world
that's unique and nothing like anybody else who ever walked the
planet. That part's the most awesome part to me; being surprised
at how much I could be a lot like someone else (following a
stereotype or playing a role, or going through some parts of
life as if I'm living through a really bad movie script) and
other parts where nothing like me has ever existed, anywhere in
the history of humanity, nor ever will again. I dunno; I just
love existence.* For all the crap that happens, the times I
"didn't ask to be born", there's even more times where I'm like,
"woah, I'm glad to be here to see this!", especially with the
little things.
