When I play the piano, I will just start doodling and see where
it comes. I like to play very fast and lots of arpeggios and
sometimes I smash the lower keys with octaves; going to
different keys and such. It's improvisational, although there
are patterns, and I don't what the style is; never figured it
out. Anyway, as the player, *I don't know* what's coming next as
I'm playing; it just... comes. I always have my mind on the
resolution as I play - not knowing what it is, but knowing that,
at some point, the song will temporarily end. [but I can pick
the 'theme' up again later, continuing the song after, say, 5
years of pause, if I like) - but that temporary ending is in
mind somewhere as I play, as I can stop the song anytime I want
to. When I notice patterns I'm following, either of chords or
style, I try to break the pattern, unless it's a pattern I don't
particularly mind. Cause and Effect are a wonky, tricky thing to
determine. They intermingle, because the ultimate effect (the
end of the song), while unknown, is a known and it
back-influences the present, while the past also affects what
I'm playing. But Time isn't liinear. It skips around, goes
backwards, inverts at least in the context of improvisation. As
far as "reality" goes, I have no reason to believe that reality
doesn't also work in the same fashion. If it works in this
microcosm, no reason it couldn't work in a macrocosm, as it
were, just not everywhere perhaps.
