Just over one year ago, I became a recluse.* This was not too
difficult for me, as I have an introspective personality always
asking itself questions.* The difference in the past 12 months,
has been disassociating myself from much of the world around me.
I minimized the amount of people that I allowed to have my
absolute complete attention for long lengths of time. They are
also the most needy people in my life, but it was the best I
could think to do. By the same token, I increased the amount of
people I paid attention to for short periods of time.* I have a
need to feel valuable, and so by increased by the thousands the
number of people who needed only an encouraging word from me to
get out of their negative state and back into a creative state
of mind that required minimum maintenance from me, the
occasional encouraging word or thumbs up. I stayed up until 5:00
AM.* For several months, I recorded my every waking thought on
index cards and on anything I could get my hands on.* I learned
quite a bit about myself and, by extension, humanity. I spent
his time researching whatever grabbed my attention at the time
that was related to the nature of the universe, the human body,
and most importantly, the very tiny gap through which all
sensory and motor input seems to travel through in the mind.
Thousands of note cards later, every visited web site saved for
potential reference, I am finally ready to come out of my shell
and reveal what I have learned. Everything in this book contains
ide** *as that I genuinely believe to be true.* From my
perspective, these are things that simply are facts. However,
this is my bias.* I live inside of my brain and body, and what I
see and hear and understand may not apply to anybody or anything
else in the universe.* My hope, is that it is applicable to
everybody who ever lived, lives, and will live in the future.*
But that is simply hubris and vanity on my part. Kenneth Udut,
April 20, 2014
