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random thoughts - downsizing?
6/22/23
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Every now and again I get this random urge to cut back, I feel
I have been in one spot too long and accumulated too many things.
Last time i felt this way it was a big move, a drastic change
in my life. How I had lived before distressed me, so I cast of most
everything that remotely reminded me of it. I kept some books, a
laptop, some records, but most things were left behind.
If i left again what would I keep? A camera
or two? A typewriter? Do I need all of the books or is an old kindle
sufficient? should I keep the dumbbells or switch to body-weight? do I
want to build and paint robots still?
I have these neofolk fantasies of being in the forest wrapped
in camo and looking off to the mountain side. Back in reality a
loved one mentions Iceland and I say "lets go", but you know pasports
and money and so on....
I think I just lack a bit of "living space", this concept to me
is not only a physical amount of space, but also a mental one.
sometimes to be ones self you have to change something. One person
in my life feels the same and I just think about running away with
him, but... well its hard on many levels.
I have no kids, no debts, no responsibilities. I could downsize
my things to fit in a trunk. Go any place I want. Do anything I want,
but then what to do?
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