I write a lot and don't publish much.
I often write offline and then never
get to push it to my gopher. It feels
like it would be multiple unrelated
pieces all at once.
A solution like syncthing could be
interesting as I wouldn't need to think
about scp or unison or rsync when my
computer is connected to the net.
I also feel like I've got into the
habit of publishing everything I write.
Without much editing and much thought.
I don't know how interesting it's all
is for the readers. My life is such a
kaleidoscope of experiences, it's
hard to find a common thread trough
everything. I also realize that
I am fairly unstable in my moods, from
depression to overly excited about
a new project. It's really not consistent,
and I feel it might leave the readers
confused and not wanting to come back.
It feels like I'm taken the readers for a
walk in the woods, and mid-way I change my
mind and decide to go to a rave instead.
While walking to the rave, I see a temple
and decide to sit there for a few years...
I can see how that would be annoying,
to have expectation of some projects or
some ideas, some follow up, but then
completely changing course. Like, why
am I reading that in the first place?
When I started to gopher, a couple years
ago, I though that I'd rather not simply
write about my life. I wanted to have a
more pragmatic gopher hole. Which gets
updated regularly, but not about my diary
and reflection but about building something.
It was a great goal, but I ended up simply
writing about my life. It was fun for a
while, then last fall a massive drama
got me off-course, and I haven't rebuilt
the confidence or laissez-faire that I used
to have. I feel my writing are even more
aimless. I also stopped writing for the
local newspaper, with that same feeling
of aimlessness.
It made me questioned a lot of what I am
doing online and with this gopher and my
writing in general.
To put it in perspective, this gopher hole
is my most active online social life, next to
aNONradio^1 and COM and my email. I don't
participate in any other online social
sharing network, I don't hang out on
many chat room, I'm part of a few low
participation email list, but that's
about it. It has become my only writing
platform.
So this gopher hole is quite important
in my journey. It's something special
that I care about and that I've learn
to love, with 40 folders and 240 files
it has grown quite well over the last
couple years. I'd like to shape it
accordingly, and grow it more like a
garden then a long list of aimless
reflections. Although these reflection will
stay, I want it to create a secondary role.
This is why I want to refresh my
garden section, and write it more
like a book. If there is a working title
it would be 'The book of the Yogi;
A field guide about personal
and social evolution."
In there I want to list all the practices
I do and share it for everyone to use
or not to use. It is a bit of a
guide book that build upon my first
yet to be publish book 'The elements of
meditation'
This is only one part of the fragmented
life I lead, form martial art, to meditation
to hacking, electronic music, fiddling
and theatre, to name a few. I'd love to
bring all of me under the same roof, and
this gopher hole is really comfortable!
So bear with me, I'm slowly building
my strength back and hope to make this
place a bit more enjoyable as I 'evolve'.
1:
https://anonradio.net
